𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐒𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐈𝐓𝐘 [𝗢𝗡 𝗛𝗢𝗟𝗗]

FIRST DAY

"You'll be hated by everyone if they found out what you did."

"Just end yourself. You'll be better off dead."

"You're a freak."

I ignored the voices in my head the best way I could and picked my medicine bottles up.

carbamazepine, chlorpromazine, and quetiapine

a/n: basically medicine for her explosive anger, bipolar depression, and schizophrenia

I took my medicine and sighed in relief as the voices started to quiet down.

This sickness really gets old when you're trying to have a good day or something.

I walked out of my bathroom and into my room to put my clothes on while softly humming along to X.

He also helps with the voices. I find comfort in his music especially when I'm having a depressive episode or just simply want to feel calm.

"Tari are you ready?" I heard my mom ask.

"Yup just one second." I threw on my over sized black hoodie that read 'Revenge' just so she wouldn't question me about my scars on my arms.

I decided to leave my hair damp and curly and did my edges without forgetting to throw some Cantu in so my hair won't be dry.

I grabbed my stitch backpack and headed downstairs for breakfast.

"Atari... You going to school dressed like that? And on your first day?" She asked looking at my attire.

I had grey sweats and of course the hoodie on but I seen nothing wrong with it.

"I wear sweats everyday, what's the issue?" I shrugged grabbing a piece of toast.

"First impressions always matters." She told me.

"So... I'm not gonna care what they think of me." I half-lied.

Apart of me does care because what if they start to judge. But the other half doesn't really give a fuck.

"Okay." She sighed.

"Plus it's not like anyone will not know who I am." I rolled my eyes.

It irritates my soul that I'm known. I wish my mom weren't so.. famous.

That draws unnecessary attention to me and God knows I have the worst anger issues.

"Did you take your medicine?" She asked and I nodded.

"Then you'll be fine. Kenton will be by here in a few minutes to pick you up since I have to get to work." She explained.

I nodded and watched her leave out of the door after she gave me a kiss on the cheek then went into the pantry to grab a poptart and a monster.