"Secrets are Made to be Kept" Osamu Dazai x Reader x Chuuya

Betrayal

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I looked at him in shock. "What? That doesn't make sense, not even Chuuya? Why?" I said. He paused. "Should there really have to be a reason? I said before, simply because I want it to stay as our little secret." he said. I stared at him pushing him away from me as I took my phone back from his hand, walking back to my room. I could feel his cold gaze on me as I walked, but I didn't care anymore, not now.

As I enter the room I set everything down and lay in the bed, with the light off, silent. I was confused. He acted so differently, he didn't even threaten to tell anyone. I tossed and turned in the bed throughout the night, not getting even an ounce of sleep. I get up early in the morning, make my bed up and fold the clothing items Dazai had provided for me, and then take my things and quietly walk down the hall. I open the door walking out and close it back behind me. I quickly ran down the corner away from his house, at least out of view in case he came out to find me.

I wandered around in Yokohama for a couple of hours before stopping at a cafe to get something to eat. I sit down at a small table near the front as the door to the cafe opens. "Hey! Y/n! Nice to see you here!" Atsushi says smiling. I look up and say "Ah, hey Atsushi, good morning." I was kinda blunt. "Are you okay? You don't seem all that joyful this morning.." he says with a concerned expression. I force a smile upon my face. "Yeah, i'm okay! Don't worry I just didn't get much sleep last night!" I say. He started walking over to my table as he sat down across from me.

"Are you hungry? Kunikida gave me a couple dollars to get something, I'm not exactly hungry so I can share with you?" he said smiling. "Sure, that would be great, are you sure you're okay with it?" I say, not wanting him to spend much money on me. "I'm sure! You look like you need it more than me anyway." he says. The waiter brings over two coffees in smaller cups, with a biscuit and some fruit on the side. "Thank you!" Atsushi and I both say to the waiter. I take a sip of my coffee. "Oh wow, this is really good!" I say surprised. "I know right? It's my favorite, I get it everytime I come here!" Atsushi smiles and continues "The biscuits are good too, you should try a bite!" I smile and take a small portion, the biscuit was soft, and the bread tore so smoothly, I could tell it was fresh. I take a bite.

"Oh wow, this is really good too. I'm surprised, i've never been to a place like this, especially being as cheap as it is with such great food and drinks." I say. Atsushi smiles and grabs his coffee. "I'm gonna head back, i'm supposed to meet up with Kunikida and Ranpo here pretty soon, I'll see you later, alright?" he says before rushing out. I smiled and finished up the biscuit and coffee, before walking out soon after him. I walked over to the park and sat on the bench for a little bit just enjoying being away from Dazai, I could hear kids laughing and playing on the playground as I watched from a distance.

A couple minutes had passed as the children's laughter died down. I looked up and they seemed to be staring right at me. I looked around confused, and then looked behind me. "Ah, Akutagawa you scared me there for a moment." I said. He walked over and sat beside me, to keep his voice down in case anyone else was near. "What are you doing here, you're supposed to be gathering information from the Armed Detective Agency." he says. I turned to him. "Some things got in my way, don't worry i'll be able to fix it soon." I say trying to keep a serious expression on my face, trying to hide the worried one behind it.

Akutagawa keeps a fixated, serious look onto my face. I begin to feel nervous and move a bit away from him uncomfortably. "Mm alright, just checking in to make sure. If anyone finds out about this, it is extremely important you alert the Mafia Headquarters immediately. It could ruin our plans." he says before he stands up. "Make sure you keep that in mind, y/n." were the last words that came from his mouth before he finally left. I let out a sigh and took his words into consideration. As I thought about telling Chuuya about what Dazai had found out, Dazai's words clouded my head. "It could be our little secret" I scoffed at them.

I stood up and started walking back to the Agency, thinking about Dazai and Akutagawa's words, as they echoed repeatedly in my head. I tried to shake them off but nothing seemed to work. I approached the building and walked inside, going to the top floor where everyone was through the stairs. I opened the door and Kunikida turned to me as everyone else was talking amongst each other. "Hello y/n, how are you this morning?" he says. "Oh! I'm fine Kunikida! How are you?" I reply back to him. "I'm doing quite well, just glad there's someone else here to talk to rather than all these ignorant idiots." he says, pushing up his glasses.

I simply smiled. "So, what are you guys planning on doing today?" I say. "Well, Dazai suggested we try fighting the Port Mafia, he seemed pretty eager to capture what he described a "short, ginger-haired raccoon with anger issues." I immediately knew who he was talking about and an angry expression sprinkled across my face. "Y/n? What's wrong?" he says concerned, but staying somewhat serious. "Nothing, i'm gonna go see what Dazai's up to." I lied. I turned around and rushed out the door and down the stairs. As I left the Agency, I ran down the block towards his house, I was furious but I also felt like I wanted to cry.

I approached his door and walked in, slamming it loudly behind me. "DAZAI?!" I say angrily. I heard a door open near the back hallway, I knew it was him. "What the HELL? You want to attack the Port Mafia now?! Why are you so obsessed with trying to get Chuuya now huh?!" Tears flooded my eyes and ran down my cheeks, my face was hot. Dazai walked over to me, his eyes hidden under the shadows of his hair. I wouldn't let him get close to me, I didn't want him to touch me or even be close enough to cast a shadow over me. He reached out his arms as if trying to hug me.

"WHAT is your PROBLEM?!" I say, still frustrated. "You think I want to hug you, after hearing what you want to do and your little plans, huh?!" Tears started to run quicker and fall onto the floor. Before I could say anything else he quickly took me into his arms. I wanted to get out of his grip, but I couldn't. The warmth of being in his arms comforted me, and my tears started to soak his shirt instead. As much as I hated him, and being like this, It's human nature to want to feel comfort in someone's arm, so I just let him hug me, silently, as I cried. 

finally a long chapter :)