The Irish's Sanity

Chapter Two

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I looked at the screen not even a little focused on it. There was alot going through my mind. I looked around at the mansion I called a home. Even though my sister wasn't here, it still felt like home. I remember us fighting over the dark big curtain across me I preffered a lighter shade but of course she won she was so stubborn. I missed her, I bet she would know exactly what to tell me to make me feel better. She always knew best, and she was always right.

No matter how much I would tell myself I did nothing wrong I still felt bad. I couldn't help but feel bad. I finally decided to pick up Chris' call. I could literally hear the sadness in his voice, he was such a nice guy. I didn't like hurting people in anyway especially emotionally because being emotionally hurt was painful. I have experienced it multiple of times before with my family who basically abondaned us. It wasn't such a nice feeling.

I would like to think I did the right thing, I at least stopped everything before it was too late. I couldn't help but feel I led him on for nothing.
I needed someone to talk to. I hated that I did but I really did. Serenity made sure to teach me, more like drill into me the importance of talking to someone about how you feel instead of bottling up everything. It's one of the reasons why we were so close, I told her everything. Even though Anele is my best friend she didn't know everything about me, some tales are just not to be told.

Even so I still spoke to her and the fact that she wasn't here right now made things slow down. I didn't even get to tell her about the man that could have been the future father of my children. She left early this morning to pick up Sam, her cousin, our secret weapon. I knew she would take a while because Sam lived with her grandmother and her grandmother was quite chatty. I could imagine that right now she was probably making her eat and tell her all about her travels.

Sam was also my friend but she was the kind of distant friend that one had. We didn't talk at all through the phone that much, when it came to the phone we became acquaintances but when in person we were more ourselves. That's why I consider Anele my only friend. Sam when visiting Anele and her family, would tag along to my house, that's actually how we met. It's been a while since we've spoke or seen each other especially with Anele now in Ireland because of some weather, yeah right must be one hell of a weather.

Sam's life story was kind of like mine but different, way different. She lost both her parents at a young age, she says she barely remembers what they look like aside from the pictures. She was raised by her grandmother. I say different because her family still wants her and loves her plus she was filthy rich. Her uncle, Anele's father took care of his family. Not a single person in his family struggled.

We hung out at times, even though she was a year older than us she acted way older. She was very protective of us you would swear she was our mother. She looked out for us on more occasions than one even though we didn't hang out that much. Of the two time's I went to Anele's house she was there and she made me feel more than welcomed.

My bond with her wasn't the same bond I had with Anele she was like friend/acquaintance-ish/sister. She wasn't always there and we didn't talk much but she was still very close to my heart. She has helped Anele get through some very tough times and for that I would forever adore her and be grateful to her for it. Of all Anele's cousins she was the one Anele was closest too and one of the few that I knew of, others I've only seen through pictures.

I say Sam is our secret weapon because I believe that she can get Serenity to say yes. Unlike Anele she was responsible, well from my sisters point of view. She liked Sam I think it was mostly because they shared similar qualities for example the stubborness. The moment we included her into our plans there seemed to be light at the end of the tunnel. Things looked really promising.