Wanna Make You Mine.

16

<Emma?!>

<Don sent me to tell you dinner is ready>
They talked as if nothing had ever happened between them.
<you scared me! you don't use knoc-... Emma ... what's in your hair?>
<Oh this? It's a flower that oliver gave me. Do you like it?>

He bowed his head and felt a tightening in his chest.
He didn't answer

<Ray I need to talk to you. Let's go to the library after dinner, it's important. >
she closed the door behind her and leave the boy to his thoughts.

Everyone finished dinner. They were satisfied with Don's delicious recipe, who bragged about it all the time.
Ray didn't come
She wasn't even sure he would join her to talk.
But she had to give it a try.

She went to the library and sat down at one of the tables. She waited.
She waited for a long time.
And just as she heaved a sigh of renunciation she heard the door open.

He was there
He stared down as he approached.
He sat down across from her

Emma felt her cheeks warm slightly. But she couldn't get distracted. she absolutely had to clarify with him.
<It's been a long time since we last spoke, Ray>

he nodded as his eyes refused to meet hers.

<So. I need to talk to you about two important things. The first is about the seven walls> she managed to get his attention

<me and the other children found information about a place called Cuvitidala. I will talk to Yuugo soon and we will prepare an expedition to explore that area>
<Do you already know where it is?>
<yes we have marked everything on the map that I will give to Yuugo and we will use the coordinates on the minerva pen to orient us>
<so we are finally making progress.>
<yes...>

Silent.

<alright> Ray got up from his chair and was about to leave the room but emma continued

<there's one more thing I want to tell you about>
he froze

<I've known you since we were little. Ray, we have gone through so many things supporting each other and bracing each other.
I do not intend to leave for the expedition if we do not clarify this situation first>

she jumped up from her chair trying to force herself not to let the tears come out.
<RAY I MISS YOU TOO MUCH I DON'T WANT TO CONTINUE LIKE THIS ANYMORE>

he already knew what she wanted to tell him. how disappointed she was with him for never been able to avoid her suffering.

But he preferred to opt for the choice, perhaps more cowardly, which would have allowed him not to suffer.

Leave.

He wanted to avoid the subject
He wanted to avoid making her feel bad again
He wanted to avoid her.

<RAY I MISS YOU TOO MUCH I DON'T WANT TO CONTINUE LIKE THIS ANYMORE>

what? What did she just said?
It wasn't what he had imagined to hear.

<E-emma ..?> And finally for the first time he turned in her direction.
He saw her orange hair hiding her face as she held her head down, running towards him

Then he saw them
Those big green eyes in which he wanted so much to get lost once again.

She held him tight. She didn't want him to go away. Not yet
<Ray ... please .... forgive me>
<F-forgive you?> he was still confused. he didn't understand what she was referring to.
<I know Ray. I know you are deeply disappointed in me for hiding you that my scar had reopened.
Ray I was a fool to tell you anything. I did it because I didn't want you to worry and instead I ended up losing you. You don't know what I'd give to go back and fix all this situation. I know you are angry with me, but please forgive me>

<Emma are you kidding me?!>

He untied her arms to hold her shoulders
<are you kidding me right now?! The one who should apologize is me. The one who should be disappointed should be you.
Emma I never been able to protect you. Never. I never been able to avoid that you were hurt or that you suffered>.

They looked into each other's eyes intensely.
They were so close

<the one who should apologize and be ashamed is me> his eyes were filled with anger at himself and sadness.
<I tried to avoid you because I didn't want to see you hurt anymore. But you have no idea how difficult it was.
You are the most important person in my life ... but despite this ...>

He moved a hand to her cheek, stroking it gently, and with his other he lightly touched the flower that Olivier had given her, still in her hair.

<But despite this, I can't stand by your side if I can't protect you. Someone else will do it for me when you leave for the expedition. I'll tell Oliver to take my place>

A smile full of resignation formed on his lips, which he gently placed on her forehead to leave her a sweet kiss similar to a farewell.
Then he turned around and started walking towards the exit.