beautifully broken

Chapter 9

Luke's pov

It had been about an hour since raya fell asleep, I was just scrolling through twitter seeing Ashton and the boys retweeting random old pictures of us

I smile down at the small girl I held but it dropped when I heard Michael shouting again. I try my best to keep her sleeping and comfortable while trying to cover her ears from his shouting.

"Raya! I swear if your with luke-"

I hear ash and cal trying to calm him down and I hug raya into my chest tighter knowing she will probably be woken up, I sigh waiting for him to storm in and soon enough, He does. Nice and loudly.

"what the fuck are you doing with my sister bro? She's 17!"

"atleast I treat her like a sister Michael if you would shut the fuck up for 5 minutes and let me explain you would know she didn't sleep at all last night and needs the rest."

"i don't care! Stay away from her!"

As I thought, she woke up burying her face under my arm almost seeing scared and sticking her middle finger out at him, I chuckle at her and tell her to put it down.

"Raya we seriously need to talk."

"no she doesn't need to talk with you Michael because your definition of talking is different to ours. All you do is shout at her. I'm not letting you do it to her all the time you can't see how you're affecting her."

"no I really need to talk to her. It's important. You can wait outside I don't want to shout and it's not up for debate."

Raya sits up rubbing her eyes cutely before climbing out of bed and going to the bathroom she closes the door and Mike looks between the three of us

"Im not gonna shout." He promises but I don't buy it.

I sigh before nodding towards the door leaving Mike sat on the bed I close the door behind me hoping he's true to his word

Raya's pov

I walk out of the bathroom seeing Mike sat on the end of my bed so I sit at my desk chair

"listen Raya. I don't want to shout alright. I just need to know your ok. Your not sleeping or eating and I can see you getting skinnier." Why does he care? Why is he making my emotions go crazy? One minutes he's at my throat and the next he's asking if I'm alright. This isn't fair. There's only so much I can take..

I sigh looking at my feet.

"please just look after yourself. I know ive been a dick but I won't let you get sick and also don't get with luke he's a player he's just trying to get in your pants."

I nod again not making eye-contact with him wanting him to leave already.

"bye."

He gets up and leaves slamming the door behind him, I jump at the slam but settle right after..

I felt my chest tighten and my breathing hitched, my hands became really shaky and I found it hard to find my breath. Oh god, not again.

I couldn't shout out for help so I was left dealing with this alone, I mean it's not the first time.

My legs felt like jelly so I layed down on the floor on my back. I felt like I was gonna throw up. I started crying loudly to get someone's attention, I usually dealt with my panic attacks by myself but this one was worse than I've had before. It felt like my chest was being torn apart

"Raya? Are you okay in there?"

I screamed hearing calum ask me I needed something

The door swings open and he sees me on the floor

"Raya?! ASHTON! MICHAEL! LUKE! HELP ME!"

He knelt down beside me grabbing hand and supporting my head with his thigh.

"it's alright love breathe in and out for me, alright" he spoke gently in hopes it would calm me down but I couldn't focus on his voice properly to have it calm me down.

"why are you- holy shit" finally the other boys arrive

"okay sit her up and put her head in her knees" ash told luke and calum who were at my sides. They help me sit up and calum hds my head into my knees, I felt something cold and wet go on my neck making me freak out but luke was quick to tell me

"it's just a wet cloth, nothing major"

"in and out for me alright Raya.. Steady your breathing and focus on calum's hand"

I followed his instructions feeling it slowly go away leaving me exhausted but I got through it thank god

"feeling better?" calum asked after a moment of silence and I nod gently.

"ok good make sure you rest for a bit alright"

Luke lifts me up and puts me in bed flicking the light off.

"we'll come check on you later but make sure you rest.."

I nod and close my eyes hearing the door close and the room fall silent

I wanted hugs. I wanted cuddles. I found myself wanting Luke.