beautifully broken

Chapter 21

I was sat on the couch watching the boys' latest performance and it was beautiful I waited for it to end so I could call Luke and tell him how proud I was, I really missed him

I just wanted to hold him in my arms again, it was the speech part before they ended it

"I just wanted to say thankyou to everyone who came out to see us tonight. We greatly appreciate it, make sure you al lay at safe and look after each other because we're all only family here." Luke says getting ready to leave but mine cuts him off

"So before the end of the night there is someone, well two people I really need to apologise to. I hurt them both to the point where they had to sneak around.. Luke and my sister, Raya. I know Ray is watching this right now and I want to say how proud I am of her and her relationship with Luke, they worked so hard to make considering I was a complete dick and made it difficult for them, I love you Ray.. that's all! Thanks everyone we love you so so much don't forget that. Goodnight!" I felt the tear well in my eyes and a smile crawl across my face

God I loved him..

I watched lu hug mike and both run off stage with cal and ash.. My phone started ringing, mikes name showing on my screen,

"Hello Michael?"

"Hey Ray.. I wanted to call and say I mean what I said. I love you angel.."

"I know.. I love you more mikey."

"Not long now.. we'll be home before you know it.. not long, now go to sleep i know it's late over there!"

"It's 2am I'll go to bed now. I love you guys" I hear everyone yell they loved me back from the phone making my smile only grow

"Goodnight mikey.."

"Goodnight ra ra.. sleep well.." The call ended and I was left alone yet again.. It was weird because I used to love being alone because I had no choice and I was forced to have it that way, now that I was getting attention and love I just wanted to be selfish and have them all to myself..
My boys..
My family..

Now I couldn't be selfish I had to share them with the world so they could do what they see most passionate about
Performing for the world

Saving millions of people out there who use their music to keep them going. I didn't realise that there was something that keep me going until I met Luke.

Luke showed me the love that I so deeply craved and didn't even know it, but then there's the thought I'd what if he got fed up with me?

I didn't want him to feel like he was tied to me forever.. he was a free man.

I always believed that home had to be a place; until I met him.

And wow did he prove me wrong because as time has passed by, he has become my home.

With him I feel safe,
With him I feel loved
He brings me comfort in a way no one has ever been able to

And I vow to love him with my last dying breath even if I watch him fall in love with another.. whether it be man or women..

He will always be my person.
But I may not always be his.. and I have to accept that but for now all I can do is hold him tight before he may decide I'm not good enough and leaves..

The tears sting my eyes but I turn of the tv and cuddle myself into the couch as much as I didn't like the dark, tonight. Tonight it was inviting and I let sleep over take my body in hope when I wake up i will see his beautiful blue eyes that drew me in and made me fall head over heels for him..

Hello! It's been a while.. how are you guys? I completely forgot about this book and I am so incredibly sorry
A lot has gone on in my life..
If you're still here, thanks for sticking around
I'll try my best for you guys
I love you all have a good day <33