19.The Fallen God

74 * Every Beginning Is Hard (Reborn)

74 * Every Beginning Is Hard (Reborn)

Moonbyul relaxes her body and let it dive in completely, she feels her body getting weaker...Is so funny how vulnerable and weak are humans no? We are like a bag full of shit but stab it or just cut it a little bit and the whole thing will spill out of it....just like she, she is a monster and her whole shit will spill in some minutes, she can feel it coming

Death will find her soon and then take her with Hwasa, then she will see the love of her life once again

She open her eyes looking the ceiling of her bathroom thru the now red water, Moonbyul smiles one last time recalling everything that happened thru this day but then she sees Hwasa floating on top of her, Moonbyul smiles grow bigger letting scape the air that she was holding just to feel herself drowning but then she whispers her last words "Hwasa, I love you" her eyelids that are heavy fall closed

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You know that feeling when you get dizzy?

I was feeling it in that moment!

I was floating, I was so light, I think my moment has come; all I can feel is the arms of the death hugging me and engulfing me deep into it

But you know what I stopped feeling?

I wasn't worried nor so sad like before, all I had inside my head were beautiful memories of my lovely Wheeiny and our first time together and how brave was she to pull me closer to her, just with this in my mind my heart felt blooming like a rose again

For more that I've tried to hate her with all my heart and body, my body did success but my heart couldn't so I truly never hated her, I loved her dearly, am I stupid no? just when I'm about to embrace my death I'm recalling her precious memories in me like a photogram

Then a someone else came on the frame, my dear and beloved girlfriend "Hwasa" that's all I can whisper but she only shows me her precious smile

She showed me that I deserved to be loved once again because she showed me deeply her feelings

I can't believe that I was the only person that she loved the way she did it, I'm happy and glad that she granted all that love that she had never given to someone to me and only me, she gave me her all, her everything to me

I loved her so much that all I did was think about her and now I miss her, I want to reach the place where she is; it doesn't matter if it is hell or heaven, all I know is that I need her so much

"My love" Lord, I still could listen her voice...Is she calling me? Will she guide me where she is?

I got no choice, even if I had choices I would still follow Hwasa to the deeps of the hell or heaven...I don't want to be all alone, I want her by my side, I don't want to live with her memories but with her next to me, her skin against mine, I need her to make it through the dark and cold night, I can't control my mind nor my body if she is not there for me.

All I want is her, all I think about is her, my dear Hwasa

All the memories about her are filling my heart and head, it's like being in a middle of a tornado and all that is surrounding me is her imagens, ain't no way to forget a beautiful and precious pearl like her....

If am lose my mind and breath please let Hwasa be the reason because no one got me the way that she did

Hwasa filled my heart in a way that I can't explain and I was begging for more, my body was craving for more everytime I was with her