19.The Fallen God

76* Too Late to Apologize But I Apologize (Reborn)

76* Too Late to Apologize But I Apologize (Reborn)

The guys didn't know what to tell Solar so they just stood there quiet and saw how Solar got close to the piano where her cake is resting on the floor but then something caught her attention

Solar is thunderstruck by what her eyes are looking at "that imagen....is an ultrasound?" she whispers asking this to herself, her trembling hands get close to hold those imagens and the letter

While reading the letter Solar's tears fall without she even notice it

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1 hour later, after all the confusion and heartbreak that Solar managed to handle, she walks out of the Asylum passing thru the large backyard

"It's a beautiful place" she attempts to smile while appreciating the shinning sun and the snow falling making a beautiful view of the place, everything looks beautiful but the pain inside her is so heavy, her eyes are red and puffy, she never thought that today would turn like this

Solar didn't notice where she was walking until her eyes look in front of her and she finds Moonbyul and Hyuna, well Hyuna is picking up her stuff while looking at Solar, she whispers something that she could clearly hear "I'll come back, don't treat your wife like that, remember Hwasa didn't like mean people....you are better than that!" with this Hyuna leaves a soft peck on Moonbyul's cheek, with this Solar frowns but attempts to show no emotion when Hyuna turns to her with a big smile and pass by her

Seconds and Minutes pass by but Solar doesn't move less Moonbyul until "I'm sorry" says Moonbyul looking at Solar with the corner of her eyes, Solar gulps feeling nervous and sad yet happy because Moonbyul is finally apologizing to her, well she is super confused but she attempts to understand Moonbyul's situation because it looks like that letter that she had, it was opened recently or at least she would like to think that

"I shouldn't have done what I did...I apologize....but I need sometime" Moonbyul takes a deep breath and then sighs and Solar nods but walks slowly closer to where Moonbyul is sitting then she sits next to the latter looking at the precious view in front of them "Happy birthday" she whispers and Moonbyul smiles slightly "Thank you but I don't think this is a happy moment at all..." Solar nods for the nth time because she doesn't know what to say, the imagen of the ultrasound is still playing inside her mind

"I'm sorry...for your lost...for Hwasa and your....your baby" Solar's throat tightens when she said baby, she never thought that her wife could make some other woman pregnant, well now that she remembers it, once Moonbyul said that she wanted too many children with Hwasa; this memory pains her, it feels like a huge knife being stabbed inside her chest burying inside her heart

"I wish I could apologize because I cheated on her but it's too late to do that....I'm sorry for not controlling my hormones in that moment, it was a mistake, my mistake" ...Ouch this hurt Solar so much and so deep that she has to take a deep breath to not cry right there and then ".....I'm going home...." Says Solar before she stands up but stops when a cold hand holds hers "Will you come again?"

Solar clenches her teeth because those tears that she was retaining inside are now free like a river falling down her cheeks...she never thought that love would be this complicated...she doesn't want to come back because she doesn't want to be hurt but she is always craving for Moonbyul's presence...even through she was an error....their relationship is an error...She wants this to work out