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I don't need protecting part 3 (A. R)

Y/n's POV
I was shocked at what arvin has said. "Let's run away..." I couldn't speak. My mouth still open from shocks "say something please" he looked into my eyes "what do you want me to say" I finally said "say yes let's go we can go anywhere you want" he looks desperate "Arvin you can't always run away from problems especially this one! This is a huge problem it's not a tiny one you can just throw away" he looked down and put his hand through his hair "I know I just can't go to jail it will be just me and you I swear" I looked away from him and sat beside him looking forward "what about my family? I can't just pick and leave them. They need me. I'm scared arvin I'm so bloody scared" I start to sob. Arvin was now the one to comfort me. "I know it's my fault and I'm sorry. You can visit your family I promise" 

I sit there not saying anything. "Say something baby" he pleaded "do I have time to think" he nodded slowly "I'm gonna hate this so much but meet me at the field near the church at 10 am and if you don't show up I know that you don't want to come and I'll let you go for good cause once I'm out of here for good and I'm not coming back" he is now crying again a little "and if you come wow that would mean the world but baby it's your choice it's not mine I just want to say a few words while your here with me right now" I nodded my head telling him to speak. I had tears running down my cheeks. Arvin put his hand on my cheek and wiped away the tears that were falling with his thumb.  "I have never thought I would find someone to love me because I always thought I was too much a jerk to be loved then I met you. The love of my life. Before I met you and I did those things to them people I felt like I was doing the right thing because they were bad people but now I look at me and I go I'm just like them. When I met you I decided to let everything go and forget about it. I didn't tell you because I didn't want to scare you off because you were everything that I've always dreamed off. When we started to go on dates my heart always fluttered and did backflips. When I held your hand for the first time I felt butterflies. When I asked you to be my girlfriend I got so nervous cause I thought you didn't see me that way and I thought I'm gonna lose you but when you said yes my heart exploded and happiness that I've never felt before. When we had our first kiss sparks were flying. When we had our first time together I felt electricity running through me. When we both said I love you's for the first time I felt alive cause I've not loved someone as much as I love you. Everything we have done together for this past 9 months have been amazing baby. I love you so much and now that I'm probably gonna lose you for good is scaring the shit out of me. If you leave I know it's because of me and my stupid ways. You are the best things that has ever happened to me. I'm so scared of losing you and I might not seem scared but darling I am I'm shit scared but I know you're scared of me and that's the worst part. I'm so fucking sorry I know that won't cut it but I really am. I love you so much princess" his words took me back and gave me butterflies. He put his hand on my cheek. "Can I kiss you?" He asked me. I hesitated before nodding my head. He leaned in and put his lips on mine. WD moved in synch. I still felt the same sparks. We kissed for a good 2 minutes before separating. "Go get some sleep baby you will need it" he says I nod my headZ. I got up and walked away turning back around to see arvin looking down his elbows resting on his legs and his head in his hands. But I walked away,

I got home and went to the kitchen getting a drink trying not to wake everyone up. I went to my room and planted myself down on my bed. Laying on my back and look up at the ceiling thinking about if I should go with arvin or not. His words flooding my mind. He is the love of my life but he killed them people in front of me. Will I ever trust him again if I go with him? My head is all clogged up I can't think. I decided to turn out the lights and rest my head hoping that the answer will come to me. I'm really stuck...