Los Solteros 1: Irresistible Sensation

Chapter Thirty-Seven

"WE need to move... now." Mariing wika sa'kin ni Maria. "I didn't expect that they will be here. Hindi dapat tayo makita rito. Let's go!"

Nagpatangay ako sa hila ni Maria habang nakatulala hindi lang ang aking mata maging ang aking isipan. I just don't know what to do when Yvette confirmed that the woman who has Gabgab was none other than my older sister— Helena. A sister that I didn't even know exists.

Ni hindi ko pa nga hundred percent na-d-digest sa utak ko na may nakakatanda akong kapatid ay saka naman sinundan ang pagkakita ko sa kanya? Questions were pouring me and I don't know what's the first question to ask.

All along I thought kami lang ni Travis ang Fontanilla sa pamilya namin. Does this mean that Dad and Mom hid this information on purpose? Alam ba 'to ng kapatid ko? Paanong buhay siya kung sa mga binomba nilang rebelasyon sa'kin ay lumalabas na patay na ito pero heto at nakita ko pa talaga na buhay na buhay. At ano? Ibig sabihin... totoong may namagitan talaga sa kanila ni Troy noon? Is it possible that Gabgab is their...?

"H-Hey, Serena. Calm down, okay? Breathe, girl. You need to breathe." Rinig kong wika ni Maria sa tabi ko, we are now back in our car and I didn't notice that I'm struggling to get some air.

"Is she okay, Maria? Tell me what's happening to her?!" rinig kong tanong naman ni Yvette sa kabilang linya.

"Her anxiety is attacking her," she replied then tried to get a small fan. She opened the car window beside so the air will get in.

"Just come back here at once, we'll figure this all out. We have something to discuss with the kid's kidnappers too."

"B-But... w-what about Gabgab?" nag-aalala kong tanong.

"Leave it to your brother and that good for nothing arsehole. They won't leave there without the kid for sure."

Tumango tango na lamang ako at nagawi ang tingin sa bintana. Maria's driving speed is normal. I breathed deeply and washed away the tears that keep on falling. 'Di ko inaakala na ganito pala kasakit. The pain from the bombs they exploded at me has this domino effect. Napakaswerte ko naman 'ata. Eat that sarcasm!

I couldn't believe that liking Troy deeply would give me these emotional stains that will last for quite a while. I thought I've had enough with my pain before. Hindi pa pala tapos 'yon. Parang binigyan na naman ako tadhana ng poproblemahin. Isang bagay na magmamarka na sa puso ko habangbuhay.

Bakit ba gano'n ano? Why is it easy to like a person but expecting that it would be reciprocated should experience this kind of roller coaster ride? Normal na ba 'to na mararanasan ko everytime that I will like a person? Bakit parang ang bigat naman yata at mas masakit? Bakit mas masakit pa siya sa mga nauna ko nang pinagdaanan?

They say that once you experienced the worst, having it again won't be too hard to deal with. That when you experience the worst pain you could ever feel, yung mga susunod mamaniin mo nalang. Bakit parang 'di naman 'ata umubra sa'kin? At bakit 'di siya naubra? It's unfair, really really unfair!

I did my best to be in the position where I am right now. Iginapang ko ang success ko na 'to. Pero yung mga problema ko at pinagdadaanan ay akala mo pinaparamdam sa'yo ulit na first time mo 'tong maramdaman, dealing the pain... again.

Bakit hindi nalang sinabi sa'kin ni Troy ang totoo? Or at least nabigyan naman sana niya ako ng hint na ang ginagawa niyang ito ay para pala sa isang babaeng... hindi ako. That his hunt to know the truth behind the death of my so-called sister should be done at hindi ako sapat na rason para hindi na niya iyon ungkatin pa uli.

Tangina, sino nga naman ba ako 'di ba? I was used by him, from the beginning. From the night she saw me in that bar in the US. Kasangkapan lang naman ako para malaman niya ang totoo. Although he's getting there, the moment that he exposed his plan means that I'm no longer needed because I've already served my purpose.