Los Solteros 1: Irresistible Sensation

Chapter Thirty Two

"A-Are you really serious?" halata sa tono ng binata ang kaba nang iharap ko mismo sa kanya ang resignation letter ko. He went back to his table when I pushed him away when he tried to kiss me endlessly. Muntik na akong bumigay pero naalala kong hindi ako ganoong nakaayos bilang Serena Angeles. One clothing that will be removed, madali na niya ako mabibisto. I saw his disappointment and hurt on his eyes. I thought I would waver dahil halos hilain ko uli ito kanina para ituloy ang halik. Pero kinaya ko.

"This is just for formality. I heard from her that I was tagged as AWOL already. I went back just to clear my name para makuha ko pa ang last pay ko."

Nakatulala lang ito sa'kin. Bakas ang pinaghalung-halong emosyon na ngayon ko lang uli nakita sa kanya. He's frustrated but he is also longing to touch me, to hug me. Minura ko pa ang sarili ko na huwag mahabag at huwag magpadala sa konsensya ko. I'm doing this because... shit! I don't know why I am even doing this.

"Iyan ba talaga ang una mong sasabihin sa'kin matapos mong mawala?"

Binaling ko kaagad ang ulo ko sa labas ng malawak niyang bintana. I focused my eyes seeing the wide area of Metro Manila.

"Ano ba ang inaasahan mong sasabihin ko?" I really tried my best to sound so cold. I even felt something stuck on my throat and I have to make this fast. I have to end what is needed to end para matapos na 'tong existence ni Serena Angeles.

I heard him scoffed but it was silent in a sense that he didn't want me to hear it.

"I was busy looking for you—"

"No one asked you to do it,"

"But I want to!" napaatras ako ng isang hakbang at nagulat sa naging pagsigaw ni Troy sa'kin.

I almost slipped away when I saw how hurt he was.

"I wanted to search for you because you didn't even give me a chance to explain! You didn't even give me a chance to at least clarified what happened in the bar when we met Yvonne again! You left me there with her!"

"Hindi ba iyon naman talaga ang gusto mo?! Tapos na ang trabaho ko sa'yo 'di ba?! She was there, saktong sakto sa party dahil success naman ang business plan! Ano'ng tingin mo sa'kin? I'll stay to slap me the reality that I'm just temporary? Hell no, Troy Davis!"

Hindi ko na rin napigilan ang emosyon at nakipagsabayan sa kanya ng sagutan. He wanted to know my thoughts, right? There! I've said it!

"Paano mo naisip na 'yon talaga ang gusto ko? Huh? Ang mawala ka? Paano ka nakakasigurong 'yon talaga ang gusto ko?!" he threw me that question that appalled me. I was taken aback. "See? Hindi mo alam because you let your overthinking skills capitulated."

I gritted my teeth and clenched my fist. "I d-didn't overthink." I tried to sound confident, but the stutter failed me.

Troy started to walk towards me, and I've seen a glimpse of a grin on his lips, but his eyes are still mad and frustrated. It was like he wanted me to drown on it because of what he felt these past few weeks.

"You are unfair, Serena. You're not playing fair, 'My." His voice was calm but still there's a glimpse of danger. I even startled when I didn't notice that he held my right hand. I immediately removed it. The sparks were immensely... scary. I'm afraid that he might see right through me.

"Alam mo ba kung ano ang gusto ko?" napalunok ako because we are now so close. His face was almost nearing my left ear as he whispered that question. "Do you want to know?"

"N-No," fuck shit, my confidence was failing me again.

"You. Only you, 'My."

I was electrified and shock when I felt his lips kissed my neck. Hindi ko napigilan ang hindi mapapikit sa pamilyar na sensasyong sobra kong na-miss.