Perpetuity

Intimacy- Part 2

I cannot see the little girl anywhere. Where is she? Instead of her, I am standing in an open space where there are no trees, no bushes, no grass or any living creature. The atmosphere is not clear due to the fog or something that I cannot understand and the whole area hold a dark grey shade. It seems the place looks like a cemetery. But there are no tomb stones that could find.

So I slowly started walking through the open space with the idea of finding an exit from this horrible scary place.I think goose bumps are formed on my hands already and I have started sweating even though the place looks getting more and more colder.

Unfortunately I couldn't walk much longer as I spotted a certain unclear figure who was standing a few meters ahead of me. Then he slowly started walking towards me, very slowly with one step at a time like a predator who is lurking for it's prey. When he came close to a distance where I can see him clearly, made me nearly faint.

I cannot describe him as neither human nor an animal as pieces of flesh were hanging low on all over his body including neck, hands, arms and everywhere. His eyes, they look blood red. Then within few seconds he reached towards me. Even though I tried to run away from this scary scene in front of me, it didn't work as I thought. It's like that my legs are glued to the ground by some invisible force.

Then he grabbed my neck in an instant which was like a iron grip. Is he trying to kill me by choking me? I can't breath...God.. I can't...I will die at this rate.. he will kill me... No! Meanwhile I hear a familiar soft velvet like voice yet it feels so distant. 

" Sofia..."

But I cannot pay my attention to that voice right now. Because I am facing a more horrible situation. It's like I am watching my own death in front of a television. " No.. No.. my neck... please don't...don't...Nooo!!" And then in an instant my eyes were shot opened and tears are falling down like a waterfall down my cheeks. Oh God what was that? why was I there instead of the little girl I always see in my nightmares? This dream, I just feel like it's a bad omen or something sensing every pain like I truly was there.

And then I can see somebody sitting on the edge of the couch with a concerned look on his face... Zion.. he must think I am insane. Because I know that I look like a total mess right now. However I am glad because it was just a dream, right?

So I slowly sit on the couch still having the after effects of the nightmare I witnessed few minutes ago while squeezing my own fingers by lost in my own world.

" Are you OK sweetheart? It was just a dream love." though he is telling yet I am not convinced.

"Huh.. bu..t he.. he.. tried to kill me... he trie..d to choke me to death."

I couldn't explain that horrible experience I witnessed earlier. It's so scary. And here I am crying, and crying continuously.

I need to stop this crying yet I can't. Because it intensified hearing the concern in his voice. I don't know whether he is pretending or really feel sorry about me. However at least somebody is near me when I opened my eyes after the horrible experience in my dreams this time.

All those years I had nobody who really concerned about me. Because each child in the orphanage had different matters and they had better things to do rather than worrying about the nightmares I went through every night. It doesn't mean I was treated so badly in orphanage but it was just a mere dream to them.