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𝙲𝙷𝙰𝙿𝚃𝙴𝚁 𝚃𝙴𝙽

                                     𝚂𝚒𝚊𝚗𝚊 𝙺𝚊𝚖𝚒𝚛𝚒 𝙱𝚛𝚘𝚠𝚗
                                  𝙱𝚊𝚝𝚘𝚗 𝚁𝚘𝚞𝚐𝚎 , 𝙻𝙰
                                              𝟻:𝟺𝟻 𝙿𝙼

♫:𝚂𝚑𝚊𝚖𝚎 - 𝚂𝚞𝚖𝚖𝚎𝚛 𝚆𝚊𝚕𝚔𝚎𝚛
A low sob escaped my lips as I pressed the blade against my wrist the past 24 hours had been literal hell.

First I found out my boyfriend was cheating on me with my bestfriend then I fought her just for her to expose me oh yea can't forget she's now cool with Nimiko and them after talking endless shit about them.

I wiped my eyes letting out a shaky breathe dropping the blade next to me.

I stared blankly at the blood seeping from my cuts "Ugh I can't fucking do this anymore" I cried out lowly to my self.

I pulled myself up from the cold bathroom floor leaning on the sink staring at my reflection.

My lips quivered as more tears fell I felt utterly disgusted in myself.

𝘐 𝘢𝘮 𝘴𝘵𝘶𝘱𝘪𝘥

𝘐 𝘢𝘮 𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘨𝘶𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨

𝘐 𝘢𝘮 𝘶𝘨𝘭𝘺

I gripped the sink watching my knuckles turn white from how tight I was holding on I whimpered in pain feeling my arms start to sting.

I was snapped out of my trance hearing my phone ring I wiped my eyes and cleared my throat before picking up my phone and seeing Jaquan was calling me.

I declined it only for him to call right back , I rolled my eyes picking the phone up.

"What do you want ?" I said barley above a whisper my voice was hoarse from all the screaming and crying I did at Nunnies house the night before.

"I wanted to clear shit up , I ain't send that bitch none of the shit she posted I don't know she got it but on all my dead men I ain't have no parts in that shit" instead of responding I just broke down all over again.

That bitch really ruined my life and it was only going to get worse on Monday when I had to go back to school.

"Calm down bruh ima get this shit sorted out aight" I nodded while covering my eyes.

With that he hung up leaving me alone with my thoughts and emotions.

"Siana are you okay in there ?" I heard my moms voice outside the bathroom.

My eyes went wide as I pulled myself together quickly grabbing tissue to clean off my arms.

"Uh yea ma i'm fine" I lied straight through my teeth.

"Ok just checking and dinners ready" she told me before I heard her footsteps trailing away from the bathroom door.

Inhaled deeply before exhaling "I can do this i'm fine" I told my self as I stared at my reflection.

After I finished cleaning myself up and put on my jacket again before opening the bathroom door and stepping out.

I walked towards the kitchen placing a smile on my lips as I came into view of my mom and Brea.

"What did you cool for dinner ?" I asked sitting down at the table.

"Spaghetti" I sighed , this was our third time this week eating spaghetti.

Money must be getting tight around here again.

"Mommy i'm not feeling to good do you think I can stay home from school tomorrow" I asked playing with my food not having any appetite.

"No now stop playing with your food and eat" I sighed releasing the plastic fork and letting it fall onto the plate.

"I'm not hungry" I got up and exited the kitchen and made my way to my room.

"Where are you going" I heard Matthews raspy voice

A felt a chill down my spin as heard the floor board creek as he inched closer to me , I cleared my throat as the hair on my body stood up.

"I'm not hungry so i'm going to sleep early" I explained fidgeting with my fingers as I felt myself grow anxious in his presence.

"I heard said you wasn't feeling good , how about I check your temperature make sure you don't have the flu or anything" he suggested placing his hand on my lower back.

My mouth grew dry as a lump formed in my throat "I'm am actually ok I just have a headache I can sleep it off" I stammered opening my bedroom door.

"Matthew come eat before your food gets cold!" My mom yelled out from the kitchen.

"Well goodnight Siana" he spoke lowly in my ear before removing his hand off my back walking off down the hall to the kitchen.

I wasted no time going into my room and locking the door , I climbed in bed before pulling out my phone.

After her exposing me the amount of people that have started bothering me is unbelievable I went from only having two thousand and eight hundred followers just off people from back home to now having four thousand in counting.

My comments and DM's are mainly filled with hate and insults from all genders but I don't get why.

Like why are y'all mad at me cause a bitch got my nudes and leaked them shit why are they mad in general like in what way does me getting exposed affect them if anything I should be the mad one.

I should be the one hurling insults towards everyone and leaving hate under bitches post and in their DM's but i'm not.

Cause that's not the kind of person I am.
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𝙷𝚎𝚕𝚕𝚘 𝚖𝚢 𝚋𝚎𝚊𝚞𝚝𝚒𝚏𝚞𝚕 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚎𝚛𝚜 𝚒 𝚑𝚘𝚙𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚎𝚗𝚓𝚘𝚢𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚘𝚍𝚊𝚢𝚜 𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚎𝚝𝚎𝚛

𝚃𝚎𝚕𝚕 𝚖𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚝𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚐𝚑𝚝𝚜 𝚘𝚗 𝚝𝚘𝚍𝚊𝚢𝚜 𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛

𝙳𝚘𝚗𝚝 𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚐𝚎𝚝 𝚝𝚘 𝚅𝚘𝚝𝚎 , 𝙲𝚘𝚖𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝 , & 𝚂𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚎