(ON HOLD) A Robot With Issues | Ishimondo Android AU

Chapter 15

⚠️ Trigger warning: Self-harm

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Kiyotaka tried to reach for his phone inside his pocket as he was down on the dirty ground. But that resulted in his wrist getting stomped by the man's boot.

"What? Are ya gonna call the fuckin cops now, ya coward?!"

One of the men snatched his phone from his pocket and threw it deeper into the alleyway. Thank god for phone cases.

"What a fucking coward. Always having other people to do the job for you. Just like how your father died trying to pay off yer' debt while yer' just being useless all the time!" another man mocked.

Kiyotaka tried to get up, only for him to be pushed back down again.

"Why aren't ya fighting back, Kiyotaka?!"

Why wasn't he fighting back?

He was perfectly capable of defending himself. He took self defense classes when he was a kid. Then why wasn't he fighting back?

Because…

Kiyotaka knew he deserved this. He knew these people.

They used to attend school until Kiyotaka had caused them to get expelled. Now they blamed him for their ruined futures because Kiyotaka ruined everything for them.

He had ruined other people's lifes. He deserved this.

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Kiyotaka shot up from the bed. He felt himself hyperventilating.

Thousands of thoughts flowed in his mind. Horrible thoughts. All of them mocked him for all the different things he did in the past.

'Chihiro never wanted to befriend you. He just wanted to repay you for helping him move in his home. You're actually really annoying to be with and I thought you already knew that.'

'Stop overthinking, Taka' the rational part of his mind tried to tell him.

'Yasuhiro and Leon were only pitying you. They wanted to help you pay your bills because you just seem so pathetic that they would look bad if they didn't help you out.'

"Shut up…" Kiyotaka muttered.

'Your father must be really disappointed in the state you are in. You have failed to be a prime minister. Actually, you have failed at everything in general.'

Tears started flowing from his own eyes.

'Mondo may seem that he cares about you. But he's just forced to care for you because you own him-'

"Shut up!" Kiyotaka yelled.

He tried thinking about anything else but his mind came up with nothing except for those horrible thoughts. He never learned any breathing exercises to help him in this situation.

Out of options, he clenched his fist and punched his arm. He punched it repeatedly until his mind was blank once again. He was punching hard enough for his arm to be sore but not enough for it to bruise.

He was about to get one more punch in but then he felt a hand firmly grasping his wrist.

Before he could react, he was pulled back so that he was laying against the other man's chest. He could feel the calming whirring against his back.

"Stop that. Why were you hurting yourself?" Mondo asked. His voice was uncharacteristically gentle.

"I…" He didn't even know what had riled him up anymore. His episode disappeared as quickly and unexpectedly as it appeared, as always.

"I forgot," Kiyotaka dumbly responded. "I was just overreacting. It was probably nothing."

"But if you're reacting like that then it must be something bad," Mondo argued.

"No…" Kiyotaka muttered.

Mondo let out a weird sounding whine and tightly wrapped his arms around Kiyotaka's waist.

"Mondo..." Kiyotaka glanced back.

"Yes?"

"You're a robot but... have you felt anxious before? Or er... have bad thoughts?"

Mondo stayed quiet, not answering his question.

After a minute, Kiyotaka spoke up, "I'm sorry. That was a dumb question."

They stayed still in silence for a while with the only sound in the room was Mondo's whirring. Kiyotaka felt calmed down enough to feel sleepy again. He let out a yawn and fell asleep against Mondo's shoulder.

The last thing he heard was Mondo's muttering.

"I'm don't like the thought that I might not be good enough for you."

A/N
I already warned y'all this fic gonna get dark
i think this is where things start to get more angsty??
idk i'm so unpredictable lol
sorry again for short chapter. btw