Trials and Consequences of Love

Chapter 11

Rise Up – Andra Day

"A fine glass vase goes from treasure to trash, the moment it is broken. Fortunately, something else happens to you and me. Pick up your pieces. Then, help me gather mine." - "The Perpetual Calendar of Inspiration" Vera Nazarian.

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🦄Emily🦄

"Have a good day now Miss Ortiz, I'll see you in another four weeks; remember you need to be extra careful this time around, they're two of them this time around not just one." Doctor Madigan rants as I stand from the bed.

"I'll be fine Doctor Madigan I promise" I rest my hand on her arm nodding at her.

"I hope so" she sighs walking behind me to the door.

"Have a good day doctor" I smile at her as I open the door.

"You have a good one as well, and congratulations again" she smiles waving me goodbye.

Pregnant again, this time with twins. I'll never be able to understand how the universe works; I was blessed with a child a little over a year ago and because of my carelessness I lost her. So why am I being blessed with not one but two more babies? I don't deserve this, I'm a horrible person and if losing Nina wasn't proof of that I don't know what is. Carson doesn't deserve these babies either, he'll corrupt them or he'll just kill them. I can't find it in myself to abort them but I suppose if I don't find a way to get away from Carson, I will have to force myself to give them up for adoption.

Don't give them up for adoption, this might be your last chance to have children.

I'd be selfish to keep them, they'll be better off without me.

They'll be better off without Carson, not you; they'll need you, you're their mother.

But I don't know how to leave Carson with all our lives.

Figure it out Emily, because we are keeping these babies whether you like it or not.

"Pick up the phone Valentina, Jesus Christ" I roll my eyes as I open the door of my black Audi A4 B8.

I've been trying to get a hold of this girl for about a week now and nothing.

I was supposed to have lunch with her the other day and she didn't even cancel she just didn't show up. I'm worried about her; this is unlike her. She never misses two calls in a row and I've called her over twenty times and still no answer.

If it wasn't for Carson, I would've simply assumed that she's just tired of me or Carson told her that she should stop speaking to me; but thinking it out loud now I realize how ridiculous that sounds. Valentina-Rosa couldn't care less about anything Carson says. He's been acting weird since last week, he's been drinking more often and he's back on meth. I remember the other night he came home after going somewhere with Valentina-Rosa, he was riled up, throwing things around the house and punching walls; he wasn't supposed to be at home so I asked him why he came back but he didn't answer, he just stormed out of the house without an explanation.

He is either drunk, high, or both twenty-four hours of every day, he hasn't been to school all week and he has been having nightmares again. He barely speaks to me and I barely speak to him; whatever happened that night affected both of them and I want to know what happened and I won't stop until I find out.

"Valentina-Rosa?" I knock on the door to her apartment lightly.

You don't want to answer my calls and texts? Okay love, I'll just show up at your house.