PLEASE READ: Hello, I don't really talk about my personal life at all, but I just want to let it be known that the reason I wrote the one shot is just a coping skill for me because this is what I'm going through right now, I don't usually like making small imagines where I put Gaga as a bad person because I know she'd never do this to someone and I her so much but I just needed to write. Thank you 💕.
(Also, if you requested one-shot ideas, I'm currently working on them and they will be up shortly! Thank you for your patience. 🤍)
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I still find it hard to think about you.I think about every moment we spent together, every 'meaningful' conversation we ever had, and every little feeling you gave me from even the slightest touches.
I think about it all, and for a moment, I feel like I've managed to fall for you again.
But I can't.
I won't.
My friends ask if I'm in a new relationship every time we meet to which my response is always a sweet chuckle as I mumble the words, "No, the last one almost killed me."
Of course I mean this metaphorically, but to some extent, I guess it's true.
You nearly killed me mentally with your constant lies, the way you had me wrapped around your finger, completely naive, is something I will never understand.
You were so confusing yet so enchanting.
I think the hardest pill to swallow is knowing that you will never love me the way I've loved you for so long.
And even when I thought you did, you didn't.
It wasn't until you broke my heart for a third time that I became numb.
I didn't feel much anymore.
Your so-called 'love' meant nothing anymore.
But every time I hear your name, I feel like the winds been knocked out of me and my words are caught in my throat as I try to ignore your presence, because if I look you in the eyes I might as well die. Because in your eyes I can see the naive little me that loved you so very much, so much so that she became blind.
But I guess that's my fault.
Or maybe it's yours for taking advantage of me.
But I think I still blame myself.
You see love has always had a hint of toxic, but you, you were all toxic.
Nothing more.
I remember when we met, I remember when I looked into your gorgeous and enchanting eyes as you offered to buy me a drink that night at the bar.
"And would a pretty girl like you allow me to buy you a drink?"
I still remember every thing you said that night.
My friends warned me about you, but to no surprise, I didn't listen.
"She's toxic y/n. A toxic lover will be a sick time in every single way. A toxic lover will drive you crazy in every sense. They are bad medication, yet as addictive as any potent drug. She is the drug, don't get addicted y/n."
I replay that line in my head a lot.
Each time I'm filled with pure anger as I do.
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