Not A Little! | myg + bts

Chapter Twenty-Five

The air in the living room was dense with awkwardness it was suffocating the six boys. Seokjin was probably the most nervous.

After all, as Yoongi's main caretaker, how could he have followed through with the others' plans to make Yoongi slip into little space? He thought it was a dumb plan then and now that it's come to bite all six of them in the ass, he was absolutely sure it was fucking stupid now. He wished that a time machine would appear so that he could stop the past him from doing what he did. 

He knew that he could have still convinced Yoongi to be comfortable with his little space with time and dedication, showing him affection and making sure he understands that they would love him just the same no matter who he is and Yoongi would have surely come around, slowly but surely. 

But he didn't. He wanted an easy way because he was frustrated and impatient. He was selfish and only focused on what he was feeling that he ignored what Yoongi felt. They backed him into a corner and forced his walls down.

Seokjin took a deep breath and shut his eyes tight. He bowed his head down.

"I'm so sorry. I won't try to make excuses. What we did was bad, horrible. You were taking your time to open up and I couldn't see that. I was upset. We were people closest to you, we're family and I was upset that you didn't seem to instantly trust us. I couldn't see that you were making progress, that it was big enough for you to even tell us about this side of you. I should have been grateful but I was greedy, I wanted you to be completely bare with us and that's wrong. I admit it and I apologize."

"Jin-hyung," Yoongi muttered, a little worried?

Seokjin opened his eyes and saw the teardrops on his clenched fists. He hadn't even realized he had been crying. Seeing their eldest cry, the younger ones immediately followed suit.

"I thought about it, you know. Your mannerisms at that time, the way all of you suddenly pretended that I didn't exist and how that incident was resolved after I went into little space. I reminded myself that no way they would do this but the more I thought about it, I couldn't find any more excuses. I was hurt, it didn't feel good when I finally decided to accept that you guys manipulated me."

Yoongi himself was shaking as he cried. His face turned a pale red as his bottom lip quivered. Seeing Yoongi, Seokjin could only cry more. He wanted to hug him, comfort him like he usually does with both Yoongi and Yoonie. 

"I wasn't in the wrong for thinking realistically. I wasn't in the wrong for having fears. Yet you planned something so shitty to make me go into little space when I wasn't prepared to."

"I'm sorry." Seokjin's voice was trembling at this point.

Yoongi bit his bottom lip as he scanned his members' face. Remorse, guilt. It was obvious they regretted what they have done.

"We took things too fast, didn't we? We should've been more responsible. If you guys are willing, shall we start over and take things slowly this time?"

Hearing this, the six members burst into tears and jumped on the second eldest as they cried 'i'm sorry' over and over again. Yoongi smiled as they hugged. 

"Let's start with some rules and boundaries," Seokjin sniffled as he burrowed his head into the crook of Yoongi's neck. "Let's make it so that you never regret coming out to us. I'll make you happy."

"Okay," Yoongi said, petting Seokjin's head.

Yoongi's voice was filled with adoration that it made Seokjin not want to let him go, not now, not ever.

Yoongi was kind, too kind for his own good. He's forgiving to the people he loves which makes him easily taken advantage of, just like what they did. But it's okay. Seokjin swears on his life that he won't make the same mistake twice and he'll never allow any other to hurt Yoongi like he did.

BONUS: 

Seongsu sat on the sofa watching the crying members with an awkward smile on his face. He's happy for Yoongi but he also couldn't wait for the right moment for him to leave to arrive.

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A/N: helloooooo guysssss here's chapter 25. it was resolved pretty easily but i still got some more chapters i can milk from this arc lol.

also this was the first time i wrote with a laptop so i don't know whether it'll look different from the other chapters i wrote or not.

btw, i just finished school. like actually finished it. done-so. I have graduated. :]]

+ like always, love reading your comments. thank yu for reading my story <3