Reach For The Stars (Tommyinnit x Reader)

Chapter 56

Tw mention of abuse, mention of medicine, mentions of suicidal thoughts / just mentions over it. I did not proof read but honestly never is. 📖

Please give me book Segestions I need books to read. I've already read Most of the books I can under Ansgt, Tommy x reader, tubbo x reader. Some ranboo x reader. Some tecno x reader. Very few Will x reader and lot of sleepy boi books. Please help I need more reading things📚 put link it's easier

I wake up from a terrible flashback of my brother beating me.  I see Tommy sleeping peacefully. I decided to watch the sunrise.i quickly changed into spandex shorts and a the blue version of wills merch. It was Tommy's hoodie.  I walked out and grabbed my wallet.

Before I could walk out the door I heard someone walking. It was karl. " Hey Y/n why are you up so early? '' uh Bad dream so I was gonna go out and watch the sunrise. Maybe clear my head a bit" I could tell he was half asleep so he probably won't remember this conversation. 

"Okay be safe " he grabbed a glass of water and left. I figured not to leave a note since I would probably be back before anyone woke up. I left the house and decided to walk. I love Tommy but it feels like a constant judgement. I don't like to be judged or bombarded with questions.

I decided one I got to the beach I would do an Instagram live. I walked for about 20 minutes when u finally made it to the beach. I sat down on the sand. I could either go live on twitch or I could go live on ig. I decided to twitch. I pulled out my phone and went live. 

"Good early morning chat, come join me and watch the sunset. '' I smiled. The chat had many hate comments like I was using Tommy or the others. It hurt but I ignored it for now. "  A donor popped up. 'Options on Bees' I laughed already knowing the answer. 

"They fly and are POG. But Tubbo like a da bee so I also like a da bee" I turned the camera so it was facing the sunrise.  My chat spammed that the sunrise was pretty and I agreed as the warm colors of pink yellow and orange filled the sky. It reminded me of my mom. We would watch the sun set every chance we could.

I knew she was Disappointed In me. At least I tried right. Well no I gave up on everything even myself and now I'm trying to get that back. I looked down as a donno read allowed. " Fuck you for joining the dream smp you don't deserve it. Go Die" I knew my mods would instantly ban them so I decided to have a heart to heart with my chat.

" Thank you for the advice dono but it's not my time yet. I don't think I deserve were I am either. I'm glad you said that to me because I now get to discuss your actions and what they can do. What you say hurts and will negatively affect anyone. No one deserves hate weather there a hater or a normal person. " I stopped but then decided to continue

"We're human we have feelings no one is better than another human. We should all be treated equally.  I'm Sorry that I couldn't please you all but I am human and make mistakes. You all hold me and other influences over an altar and have unrealistic expectations.  I'm tired of trying. To be perfect. If anything I've learned from. Living is that no one will ever be perfect. Life is a wonderful thing but we're treated so poorly. Life is supposed to be fun and exciting and full of adventure. People say you only live one but that's a damn lie. You live everyday but you choose to keep things the same or when it gets hard you quit and move on to something easier." I could see my chart sending crying emotes

" You choose your path you write you own story. You all have Big dream but you don't take actions on it because you scared. Here's something I want you all to think about after I end this stream. What do you want the end of your story to be and how good was it to read back?  Life is not what other people make it, it's what you want it to be" and with that I ended my live.