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Zane had a special mission to accomplish. No one could find out that he's undercover. No one. But with those hazel eyes and her smart mouth he couldn't stay away from her. She was making him feel things he never knew it was pos...
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Zane must have sensed a change in my mood lately. I haven't been as cheerful as before.
That is because I keep getting nightmares. Dreams where my father laughs cynically while holding women hostage.
In other dreams, my mother appears and laughs at my body pointing out every imperfection.
But the worst nightmare is seeing Zane leaving me. In those dreams, he always confesses that he doesn't love me and wants to break up. Then he turns his back to me and leaves.
I kept telling Zane that I'm alright but I'm not. I did not want to worry him. The mission is already too much for him and I don't want to add more.
But as days went by I felt worse. The amount of negative thoughts was overwhelming.
I question if any of this is my fault. Maybe if I noticed things earlier. Probably things would be better if I knew about their lies.
Then I ask myself if there are more lies. Wondering if my anxious heart will finally be at peace. But I cannot stop it from beating fast every time Zane calls me wondering what lie I'll find out about.
I should expect Zane's calls with excitement, happy to hear his voice. But lately, all I feel when he calls me is anxiety. Not because there's something wrong with our relationship, it's the information that he finds or the questions that he has that hurt me.
Because somehow, every call revealed another lie. And honestly, I don't think I can take any more of it.
As if he could read my mind, Zane's name showed on my phone.
"Baby, good morning!" That voice...I wish I could have you here to hug you. You're struggling too ZeZe and I can tell.
"Good morning ZeZe!" I hope he doesn't notice anything.
