Cinderella and the alpha

Chapter 29

Chapter 29

I had never felt more awkward and scared at the same time as I did now. We sat opposite each other on the couch area of my room. "So...?" I asked, not wanting to say something first. I didn't even know what to say anyway.

"I know there is a lot to explain, so much that I don't even know where to start" He said and I felt the urge to roll my eyes.

"You sure had no problem finding stuff to say to everyone else" I answered. I was feeling so hurt over this, over everything that I didn't know what explanation could possibly make that go away.

"Well, we weren't completely sure at first and-" he started saying.

"Then you should have asked me!" I cut him off. "I get that you want to protect me from getting hurt, but sometimes getting hurt is necessary, and sometimes there is no way around it, but Ryan, this is about my mother, yet it seems like you don't think it is important to freaking tell me! What hurts almost more is that you lied about it so easily, you looked me in the eyes without blinking and said no more secrets while knowing my mother is alive!" I yelled and felt a few tears escape my eyes.

"I messed up, I really messed up. And the fact that you're still a target, and after everything you've been through...I just didn't want you to be more hurt or scared, but I made a mistake" He said. "Some people say it Is better not knowing" He added.

"Closure is the better option! How can you heal from a wound when you don't even know where it is, eventually it will be too big and you can't heal from it. You broke my heart, and my trust. How am I supposed to trust you again after this?" I asked. I honestly felt we could argue about this back and forth, but all it would allow us to do is explain each other's side without it actually fixing anything.

"I know no words or explanation right now is going to gain back your trust right away, but if you give me a chance, I promise I will spend the rest of my days earning it back, and I swear I will never do something like this again" He answered.

"It doesn't matter if you swear on it or not....that will only matter when I have figured out if I can trust myself to trust you again" I answered. "But I will give you a chance" I said and quickly continued to speak when I saw the way his face lit up; "I will give you a chance for you to win back my trust. I know you being a werewolf makes it kind of difficult to break up, and I am not saying I would want to, but I think...I don't know, I just don't want to say I completely forgive you or we will be okay until I know for sure you can keep your word" I answered.

He looked disappointed, but not surprised; "Do you mean you want to take a break?" He asked.

I shook my head; "Kind of, somewhere in between yes and no" I answered. I think with everything going on, it's better to figure that out first before figuring out ourselves" I answered.

He nodded; "I get that, but just so you know, I will never give up on you, ever" he answered.

I nodded too; "Just respect that I am currently setting boundaries between us" I answered.

*

I didn't regret my decision to halt our relationship a little. I told Jordan, Evelyn and Amber how the conversation went, and they were all surprisingly understanding, even Jordan who kind of sided with Ryan earlier.

I was sitting on my bed, my back leaning against the headboard, while I was holding the picture in my hand. When I was little, it was so simple, a picture of me, my dad who I worshipped and my mom who I thought was in heaven. But now, I don't know who anyone of those people are, not even myself. I hated myself for doubting my dad, but everything about him being mates with Janine felt so wrong, I couldn't help but wonder if they actually ever were. My dad was a human, and she could easily have manipulated him in some way. There just had to be some sort of explanation, and I couldn't help but suspect my mother held a few of those answers.