Sebastian Stan one shots

With Every Breath I Take, I Die A Little More

(Angst, one-shot)

 My love is sitting next to my hospital bed, crying their eyes out. I once promised myself to never make them cry, but look at them now, a crying mess next to me. I try to reach out to touch them but I'm too weak. They notice and take my hand immediately. Their eyes filled with tears and sorrow. "I know that I'm not going to make it-.", I say, while holding in my tears. "But promise me that you will move on, my love..." Now even more tears filled their once cheerful eyes, making them overflow themselves and run down their cheeks. "I can't.", they whisper weakly, looking into my eyes. I give them a smile, while tears blurred my vision. "I know you will." They shake their head no and break down in front of me again, crying into my chest. 

I pet their head, while humming a song to calm them down a bit and after a while their breathing slows and soon enough they fell asleep. I let a few tears escape my eyes, as I knew that this was the last time that I would hold them in my arms. 

Significant other POV: I feel someone shake me awake and it was the doctor. The hospital bed was empty which made me wonder where they are. He looked at me pitiful and explained that my love had passed away a few hours ago. I felt a lump building up in my throat and my chest tightened so much that it pained me. I gulped trying so hard not to cry in front of them but I couldn't help myself. Anger and sadness was all I felt. Why did it have to be them to leave the world. Why couldn't I save them. Just why didn't I tell them 'I love you' for the last time... That was my biggest regret. I sit back down on the bed, where once laid the love of my life. I could still smell their scent and it made me cry again. I felt something in my pocket and pulled it out. It was a piece of paper folded a few times. I open it to see what's inside. 

The letter: "To my dear __, I'm writing this letter while you are sleeping on my chest. I can feel your heartbeat and it greatly calms me down. I wish we could have spent more time with each other but I'm utterly grateful for the moments we had together. If you're reading this letter right now, you'll know that I have left the world. I wish I could say that I died without regrets but that would be a lie...The biggest regret that I have is, that I never got to marry you. Please find happiness somewhere else and live the fairytale life that you deserve. I will love you for infinity. Sincerely ____"