Counting To Ten ~''~ Saiouma angst

Chapter 2: Are you lying?

TW FOR THE SONG LYRICS: OD SH AND
SU!C!DE

☺︎︎ Kokichi POV ☹︎

I slowly opened the the door to the roof and felt a gust of icy wind push me back.
I walked out onto the roof and closed the door silently.
The only thing I could hear were the cars passing by and my footsteps in the snow.
I took off my worn out sweater and dropped it by the door in the snow leaving me in a white T-Shirt with a clown mask on it, leaving my scars visible but not too noticable, considering they were mostly all healed.
I walked over to the edge and sat down, leaving my legs dangling off the edge,
I looked down at my wrists and clenched my fists.

psh, weak.

I sat there for about an hour waiting for school to end.
finally, I heard the bell and students came flooding out of the school.
I got up and stood there for a few minutes but then I seen...

"Shumai?"

I looked down to see Kaede kissing Saihara.
For some reason I started crying.
I looked up and wiped my face with my arm, trying to get myself to stop crying.

"PFFF DO IT!"
"DO A FLIP!!"
"BAHAHA DID YA GIVE UP?!"

I looked back down at the snow covered ground below me to see three people yelling at me, encouraging me to jump.
I stepped back from the edge seeing that Saihara was now looking at me.
His face was mixed with concern and disgust, he also looked a bit sad.. why?
He just brushed me off and walked off with Kaede.

Wow he really doesnt care? As expected.

I walked back from the edge slowly and picked up my sweater to leave.
I opened the door and walked down the stairs thinking about what had just happened.

Idiotic, he obviously never cared.

bzzz
bzzzzzzz
bzz
bzzzzzzzzzzz

I reached into the pocket of my sweater..

Incoming call from: Emo bitch . . .

what the fuck does he want.

I waited for the phone to stop ringing.

He's probably disgusted.

  I walked down the staircase, the snow from my shoes leaving prints on the ground.

to be honest I forgot I had aihara as a contact.
I

wandered through the empty halls heading to the entrance of the school to leave.
I walked out of the school and headed to the dorms

They have always hated you.

Once I made it inside the dormitory building I ran to my dorm and slammed the door closed.

I'm finally back.

Knock
Knock
Knock

"Go awaaaaaaay~"
I yelled as I dropped my sweater on the ground and plopped onto my bed.
"No."
My heart dropped from my chest and I quickly froze.

Why is Saihara here?..

why cant I talk?

Oh fuck.

"Oh, shumai~ what do you want?"
I finally managed to let myself speak.
"Are you okay? Can I come in?"
"Yes I'm okay, and no, you cant come in. So stop fucking worrying about me and leave me alone, Its seriously annoying."
"Fine, you dont have to be a bitch.. Jesus."

I'm not a bitch.

I rolled over and stuffed my face into my pillow, once he walked away.

"FUCK YOU"
"FUCK YOU"
"FUCK YOU"
"YOU DUMB BITCH"
"FUCK YOU"

I screamed into my pillow and started hugging it tightly in my arms
"I OBVIOUSLY DONT WANT TO BE LEFT ALONE!"
Was the last thing I shouted before falling asleep, gripping my pillow"

My
Lies
Are
Ruining
My
Life
.

᪥This chapter took INSANLY long lmao, and btw

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I was pretty unmotivated, but I'm getting ready to go to a comicon soon so I might not update for a few days. Anyways, I drew something lmao.᪥