TW: ED, PUKING
☹︎Kokichi's POV☺︎︎
-----MONDAY; DECEMBER 15TH-----
-----7:34-----
I crawled out of the hospital bed leaving Shuichi to lay there alone. It had been four days since I had been admitted into the hospital and today was the day I was discharged.
I slipped on black high waisted jeans and a white button up T-Shirt, and of course my checkered bandana. I looked at my healing cuts in shame and shook my head to rid my thoughts of that kind of negativity, for now.
I quickly tied the bandana around my neck and jumped over to the bed.
I shook Shuichi gently to wake him up.
"Ngh.......Stoooppppp... Lemme sle....sleep..."
He said as he rubbed his eyes.
"No dummy! Today we can go home! Well -- I can go home!"
"Ohhh.. riighht....."
Shuichi yawned as he sat up.
"Well... we don't have to leave immediately...Stay in bed for longerrrrrr...."
"Nuh-Uh. I'm already ready to leave, I'm waiting for you!"
I tried to pull him out of bed but failed.
"Fiiiine..."
Shuichi got up and out of bed slowly as I stood there, tapping my foot on the ground impatiently.
He went over to the bag of clothes he bought yesterday and took out a black hoodie and white T-Shirt, along with a jacket and ripped jeans.
I faced the other direction and looked at the ground as Shuichi got changed, he had explained how he is uncomfortable with me seeing him change, which is understandable.
When he was done I turned around and smiled.
"Take the jacket, you cant go outside in just that."
Shuichi tossed the jacket to me and I laughed a little bit. I slid on my jacket and ran over to the door to put on my beat up converse shoes.
"Come on or I'll leave without you!"
I said jokingly.
"Okay okay-"
Shuichi laughed before putting on his own shoes and holding the door out for me.
"Thank youu~"
I snickered before running out of the room, and out of the main lobby.
I abruptly stopped and felt the icy wind push against me. I stood there zoned out just feeling my fingertips slowly lose feeling.
"Hey Kokichi are you alright?"
I heard Shuichi ask which snapped me out of it.
"Huh? Oh yeah I'm fine."
I wiped my nose with my sleeve and looked at Shuichi.
"Can we go nowwww?!"
I stretched my words.
God I hate this, I just want to go home.
To be honest I'm scared.
I don't want more needles.
That room scares me, its so small, just small and white, plain white.
I just want to go.
"Heh, okay."
Shuichi said before leading me to a cab he had called.
I looked at the cab for a few seconds, unsure, before getting in.
I sat down uncomfortably and held my arms onto my stomach.
I feel like I'm gonna be sick...
I looked at Shuichi and whispered in this ear.
"I-I feel like I'm gonna puke... I don't like cabs... sorry"
"No no its okay, we will be home in one minute, do you think you will be fine until then?"
I nodded and closed my eyes tightly.
The car came to a stop and I pushed open the door and jumped onto the ground.
Shuichi thanked the driver and got out after me and rubbed my back.
I held my arms up to my chest as I sat on the ground, trying to catch my breath.
Shuichi kept rubbing my back as I struggled to catch my breath.
I picked at my nails in an attempt to calm down.
"Its okay Kokichi, You're doing great."
I rubbed my eyes as my throat was becoming dry from me sitting there, hyperventilating.
After a few minutes I manged to calm down as I leaned into Shuichi.
"Sorry..."
"Its okay.. You don't need to apologise for that."
I smiled and stood up shakily.
My knees were shaking and I felt kind of dizzy.
"Do you need help?"
"No I'm fine.."
I started walking to the dorms with Shuichi following behind me as I was still shaking.
When we finally made it to my dorm I dropped myself on my bed and sighed.
"I'm gonna make food, what would you like?"
I knew this would happen.
"Oh- I ate before you woke up.!"
"No you didn't."
I stayed silent and looked up at Shuichi.
"How about I make something and you can just pick at it, okay? Just try your best."
I nodded in agreement as he walked to the fridge and pulled out some random things.
I layed down on the bed, just watching Shuichi curiously.
After awhile Shuichi finished cooking and set two plates on the table, two pancakes for him and one for me.
I sat down next to him and grabbed a fork.
I picked at the food for a few minutes before putting a small piece in my mouth.
I hesitantly swallowed and took another bite.
Soon half of the pancake was gone and I was waiting for Shuichi to finish.
I sat there for a few minutes before I felt sick.
I ran to the bathroom, almost knocking over my chair, and sat down infront of the toilet.
I sobbed into my knees as I tried not to throw up. I knew I was going to but I still wanted to have atleast a little bit of hope that I wouldn't.
Shuichi came into the bathroom and sat next to me.
"I-I'm gonna p-puke-....."
I said quietly to him.
He nodded in understanding as I leaned over the toilet.
I hate this.
I puked into the toilet as Shuichi held my hair back and rubbed my back.
When I was done I cried and leaned into Shuichi.
He wrapped his arms around me as I cried into his arm.
"You did so good Kokichi, I'm so proud of you..."
Shuichi said with melancholy in his voice.
᪥"Melancholy" IVE NEVER USED THAT WORD BEFORE ISTG IM SORRG IF IT SOUNDED WEIRD᪥
