☹︎Shuichi's POV☺︎︎
Whats wrong with him?- wait that sounds wrong-.. He doesnt really talk to anyone anymore and he seems like he is in his own world most of the time... it doesnt seem- "healthy". Plus, what just happened in his room... I wish he would understand that I wont "Leave him".. whatever he means by that. Oh, he's asleep-..
I looked down to see Kokichi sleeping peacefully in my lap, still holding his blanket.
It must be important to him..
I didn't know what to do, but I wasn't going to leave him alone, so I softly pulled him off of me and layed him down on the bed next to me. afterwards I layed down next to him and tried to fall asleep.
After a few minutes he hugged the blanket tighter, pulling it against his chest. I smiled a bit and fell asleep.
-----4:36 AM-----
︎☹︎Kokichi's POV☺︎︎
I woke up panting.
I fucking hate nightmares...
I looked beside me to see Shuichi sleeping.
I decided to just let myself cry, he wasn't awake after all.
If he didn't care about you he wouldn't have treated you like this. You fucking dumbass. Be fucking grateful you ungrateful fucking bitch.
I cried into my hands, trying to stay silent.
I layed back down on the bed and curled into a ball.
High maintenance fucking brat.
I kept tightly hugging my blanket, I don't know why, but it makes me feel.. safe.
If he cares about me he wont mind if I wake him up right? No, No, I cant... He has already done enough for me... God, stop being so fucking high maintenance.. He deserves a good sleep. I can deal with this myself...
I closed my eyes and tried to fall asleep, slightly shaking.
I hope I don't wake him up.. God... I'm so useless.......
If he cares about me- he wont mind right? He'll help me right?- He wont leave! I mean- hopefully he won't..
Those thoughts ran through my head for an hour before I sat up, dropping my blanket and wiping away my tears, but still crying. I turned over to Shuichi.
He cares about you he cares about you he cares about you he cares about you he cares about you.
I put my hand on his shoulder and shook him lightly as possible. I started shaking him a little harder, and he woke up then, turned around and looked at me.
"Uhm- sorry I- I sorry I woke you up-.. Uhmm....."
I tried not to stutter but me crying made that hard to do.
"Oh, are you okay?"
He asked with a slight bit of concern in his voice
"M-Mhmm.. But I had a- a nightmare and couldn't go back to sleep-.. Sorry-"
"Ohhhh.. Okay, I'll try and help, 'kay?"
He smiled a little bit and I nodded in response.
"Is there anything that helps you sleep? Like something special, or having a cup of water or something?"
I shook my head slowly, trying to avoid eye contact with Shuichi by looking down at my hands, which were in my lap, fidgeting with a loose string on my sweater.
"Well can I try to help you fall asleep? I'll stay up with you if you'd like"
Shuichi sat up, still looking at me with a compassionate look.
"No- Y-You don't need to stay up for me- You can go back to sleep-..."
"No, No, No, You need sleep too."
"Thank you-... But- I-I don't want to be irritating-.."
I rubbed my face with my sweater sleeve, making the sleeve roll up a small bit.
"You aren't being irritating, don't worry.."
He pulled me into a hug, I rolled my sleeve back down and let my head rest on his shoulder, making me feel a strange sense of comfort.
"Thank you so... So mutch.."
᪥Its almost 12:00AM.᪥
