TW: Mentions of suicide
☹︎Kokichi's POV☺︎︎
Shuichi wrapped his arms around me tightly, hugging me as I sat there with tears still dripping off my chin.
I slowly brought my arms back up and hugged Shuichi back.
"I love you so mutch.."
Shuichi said, his voice being muffled by my hair.
"I love you too.."
I said quietly.
When we broke the hug I sat down on Shuichi's bed. I looked down, glancing at my arm which was resting in my lap.
I looked away.
"Shuichi..?"
"Yeah?"
"Will you promise me, that if I die.. you'll keep living? Even if life just sucks- you will keep going? A-and maybe.. when you do die.. y-you can tell me about all of it..!"
I said as I looked at the floor.
"Even if its hypocritical of me.. will you promise me you will keep living?"
I said, my voice cracking as I bit my lip to stop me from crying.
"I-I promise.. b-but I wont have t-to promise be..because you.. you aren't gonna die! I'm sure of it.. you can't die...I'd do anything.."
I stayed silent and nodded.
I crossed my blood stained arms to cover my stomach as I looked down at my scabs and scars.
"Are you gonna go back to the party..?"
"That depends.. are you?"
"Uhmm.... Mhm- yeah- yes."
I nodded.
"You can borrow one of my hoodies if you want."
I nodded and stood up. Shuichi reached into his closet and then pulled out a navy blue sweater with a white magnifying glass on it.
I grabbed it and slipped the sweater over my head and onto my body.
I smiled at Shuichi and grabbed his hand.
"Come on.!"
I said before he started walking next to me, intertwining our fingers together.
When we got to the pool room everyone was still having fun and talking to eachother with wide smiles.
Kaito approached Shuichi when I was looking around so I was quite alarmed when I heard him say.
"Hey sidekick!"
I flinched and looked at Kaito.
I let go of Shuichi's hand and looked down at my feet.
Shuichi's sweater went past my hands so the sleeves were drooping down at my sides, and the bottom of the sweater almost went to my knees.
"Hey why is he with you..- and why did you chase after him?-"
Kaito asked, getting obviously pissed off.
"Because Maki pushed him into the fucking pool, all you guys are doing are being fucking assholes to Kokichi for no reason. So shut up Kaito, if you keep acting like this I wont be your 'sidekick' anymore."
Shuichi said coldly. I looked up at Shuichi then at Kaito, who was glaring at me, and smirked at him.
I grabbed back onto Shuichi's arm and hid behind Shuichi, still smirking like a dumbass at Kaito.
I let go of Shuichi's arm and walked away with my hands on my hips.
I sat down in a chair and brought the sleeves of Shuichi's sweater up to my face. I pulled up the hood and put it over my head
I buried my face into the sleeves and pulled my legs to my chest.
I yawned and looked at the wet tiled floor.
I felt my eyes slowly close, making my vision go blurry, but before I fell asleep I seen the shadow of someone coming towards me.
I rubbed my eyes and looked up to see Maki.
"Kaito told me about what Shuichi said, what did you do to Shuichi brat? Why does he suddenly care about someone like you? You don't deser-"
"Maki shut the hell up, your low self esteem issues aren't my problem, stop 'sElF pRoJeCtInG' onto me, and why Shuichi is suddenly being nice to me is none of your fucking business so leave.me.alone. what happened to, 'Oh everything will be okay, come to me if something happens?' What happened to that? Huh Maki?"
Maki stared down at me, her face, a look of shock and sadness.
"I realized that I should never have tried to help a low-life like you. Just remember, Shuichi is only pitying you. Nobody could ever love anyone like you, might as well just off yourself."
"Mm.. No thanks! I've tried its fucking painful."
I said, grinning with my arms in the air, the sleeves still covering my arms.
"Y.. What-... You've tried..?"
Maki said, her voice cracking slightly.
"Well obviously I just said so! Dumbass."
"Why?!"
She said, completely ignoring my comment.
"What do you mean 'why?' You wanted me to, remember? Damn, you have reeeaaally bad memory."
I laughed.
"You fucking bastard... Why the hell would you do that?! You dumbass!"
Maki yelled as she grabbed onto both of my wrists and pinned them to the arms of the chair.
"Take a wild guess, blood clot!"
"Stop with the dumbass comments and answer me goddamn it! Are you insane?! Why would you try and fucking kill yourself?!?!"
"You wanna become my therapist or something? Haha! Blood clot has feelings!!"
I replied, Maki's grip on my wrists tightened so mutch that her hands started shaking slightly.
"KOKICHI ANSWER ME NOW."
"Nahh I don't think I will.. Plus, why are you even believing me? I'm untrustworthy remember?"
"I have known you long enough to know you wouldn't lie about attempting FUCKING SUICIDE."
"Well you caught me! I'm still not telling you though, loooossseeerr!"
I said while sticking my hand infront of her face, making an 'L' with my fingers.
"Fine. I-I'm glad you tried anyways.... I'm glad...."
She said quietly as she released her grip from my wrists and walked away from me.
Why does she seem so consistent in me telling her?
