TW: refrencing to SH - Refrencing to ED - Self loathing
☹︎Kokichi's POV☺︎︎
I stared at the vase and then looked around the class, to see everyone looking at me.
I smiled and walked out of the classroom, though I felt like I wanted to throw up, I seen Shuichi glaring at Kaito, quickly averting his eyes to look at me, he had a sympathetic look on his face.
I walked through the halls as I tried to not let myself cry. I dragged my feet along the floor until I reached the boys bathroom.
I went inside and hid inside a stall, I locked the stall door and let the tears fall from my face. I had a massive headache and this wasn't helping, I bit the inside of my mouth to keep me quiet and I squeezed my eyes shut.
I heard the bathroom door open and quickly froze in place.
"U-uh... Kokichi...?"
I heard Shuichi say quietly?
"What do you want?"
I whispered as tears fell off my chin and onto the tiled floor.
"Please come out of there..?"
Shuichi asked sympathetically.
"N-no.."
"Why?-"
I cut Shuichi off by slamming the door open and running into Shuichi, hugging him as tight as I could, I cried into his chest as I felt my legs start to shake.
I knew I probably looked so ugly right now but in the moment I didn't really care.
"I-I... I don't know what I-I did to.. To deserve this...."
"You did nothing to deserve how they treat you.. I promise, They are just assholes."
"B-bu-"
"No... That is something I know for a fact, you are an amazing person."
Shuichi whispered as he continued rubbing my back.
I sobbed into Shuichi's shoulder as my eyes started to sting from crying so mutch.
Shuichi gently pulled my face away from his shoulder as he crouched down so that I was taller than him. I put my hands on top of his as I continued to cry.
"You didn't do anything wrong.. You are the best person I know Kokichi."
"N-no- wh-what about.. K-kaede o-or Rantaro..? O-or Kirumi?- They're mutch better people than me..! I can list like.. Fifteen r-reasons not to like me!"
"Okay, tell me your reasons.."
"W-well..uhm... I lie to everyone-?"
"For a reason, you don't have any real reasons as to I shouldn't like you."
"I guess..."
I sighed. I pulled away from Shuichi and looked at the ground.
"Do you want me to stay with you for a while?"
"N-No you don't have to.. I'll be fine."
I said quietly as I looked at myself in the mirror.
"Okay.. call me if you need anything okay?-"
He said before leaving.
I left the bathroom and walked through the halls, trying my best to avoid being seen by a teacher, or anyone for that matter. I finally made my way to the boys locker room. I made sure there was nobody inside, before walking in and standing infront of a mirror.
I was terrified someone would come in but I took off my shirt and stared at myself in the mirror, poking and sucking in my stomach, to see the difference.
I sighed and looked around.
I seen it here somewhere.
I dragged out the weight scale thing from under the counter and stared at it, I had some notes in my backpack tracking how mutch weight I've lost or gained, it wasn't really healthy but who am I to say that, seeing all the other stuff I do.
I looked down at my arms, as those memories flooded my head.
I looked down at the scale before slowly stepping on it. I waited for a little bit before my weight appeared on the top of it.
"Fuck."
I muttered before stepping off of the scale, as I was getting off of the scale I heard the door open.
Oh shit...
