☹︎Kokichi's POV☺︎︎
After a few more minutes we got up and walked out of the kitchen.
I sat back down on the ground next to Kaede, exept Shuichi sat next to me as well.
I recieved a few dirty looks, in which I responded to with a grin.
After a few games Kaede announced to the room.
"Okay!! Its only 8 PM so lets head to the pool!"
Oh yeah theres a pool... I forgot...
I stayed quiet before feeling arms wrap around me from my side, and pull me into a hug. I looked over at Shuichi who was hugging me.
"Are you worried?"
Shuichi whispered to me.
"Mhmm.. But- I'm fine-!.."
I have bandages all over my fucking arms, chest, and neck. What am I supposed to say?!-
"Are you sure? You don't have to go."
Shuichi reassured me.
I shook my head and stood up.
"Okay guys!! You can change in the bathroom and bedrooms! Just be patient and wait for the other person to get out first!"
Kaede announced as she stood on a stool.
I walked away slowly, and opened my backpack. I pulled out my bathing suit and makeup, along with a baggy black T-shirt.
I held them close to me before walking over to Shuichi.
"Do you think the makeup will wash off in water?"
Shuichi nodded slowly,
Great..
I sighed and walked to the washroom, most people were finished changing and were talking among themselves.
I walked inside the washroom and locked the door.
I slowly took off my clothes and looked at myself in the mirror. I poked at the cuts all over me before shaking my head and sighing.
I slipped on my bathing suit and my T-Shirt before unwrapping my bandages and applying makeup to each one of my cuts, making them almost unnoticeable. I put my bandana back on and walked out of the bathroom.
I walked around looking for Shuichi, as I heard a group of people talking about me.
I ignored them and walked towards Shuichi.
"Did I cover them well?-"
I asked quietly as I held my arm up to Shuichi.
"Yeah, but I wouldn't recommend going in the water."
I nodded in agreement before approaching Kaede.
"When will we go?"
I asked.
"Oh, really soon!"
I nodded and walked away. I stood by the couch, alone, before Kirumi came up to me.
"Hello Kokichi."
"Hi"
I said quietly.
"How are you doing?"
"Good and bad.."
"Oh? How come?"
She already knows so it can't hurt to tell her, right? But what if someone hears?!- They can't!-
"I'm still struggling, with- alot of things."
"Oh I see, how-"
"Makeup."
Kirumi simply nodded and walked away, leaving me alone again.
I sat down against the couch and rested my head on my hands.
"Okay lets go!~"
I stood up and walked towards the door but was quickly stopped by Kaede grabbing me by the wrist and pulling me back, but not hurting me.
"Oh sorry- uh-uhm.. Are you okay? You seem like you've gotten quieter and I'm actually really worried about you."
"I-......"
I tried to speak but I couldn't find anything to say in response.
"I-I.. I can't tell you sorry."
"That's perfectly fine, but if you need someone to talk to when or if you are in trouble you can talk to me."
She smiled at me, I gave her a sad smile before leaving the dorm and walking down the dimly lit staircase, to the pool area.
Lots of people were already there, while I just sat down in a chair.
I used to love swimming and water, but when I started.. Doing this to myself... I forced myself to stop.
