Sweet Revenge

Chapter 23

He was feeling lost.

To have the wrong person tell you they love you, who wouldn't feel lost?

To have special feelings for you mortal enemy just who wouldn't feel lost?

Mew asked him if he regretted it?

He didn't.

Maybe it was the adrenaline from the alcohol but his memories made it clear how much he liked it. That's why he cut his mother's name on his skin, to remind him he can't do it. That he can't like it. That he can't be gay. Because no matter how much he thought, his mother died as a result of them so how could he become gay? How could he like Mew back.

"It's ok," Mew whispered as Gulf cried his heart out.

"Its ok." Mew whispered and Gulf shook his head. It wasn't ok. It wasn't ok at all.

It took him a while to calm down but he eventually stopped crying. He needed something to stop him from thinking. His mind was scary and he was terrified of it.

He willed himself to sleep but he only tried. He felt Mew shifting, trying to get off the couch and he panicked. As Mew was about to walk away, Gulf grabbed his hand.

"Don't go." He pleaded.

"Nong," Mew was surprised.

"If you leave me alone I don't know what'll happen to me. I don't know what I might do to myself so please don't go."

Mew could see the fear in Gulf's eyes and he liked it. The fact that Gulf was scared meant he was going to ask for help. He was admitting that something was wrong.

"I'm going to buy us food,"

Gulf shook his head. "Don't go."

"You need to eat."

"Please don't go." Gulf started crying again.

Mew felt helpless. What Gulf needed was more than what he could offer. Gulf needed professional help otherwise Mew was only going to get overwhelmed at some point.

"Ok I will not go anywhere. I'll order us food. Does that sound ok?"

Gulf nodded.

Mew sat back down and Gulf was clinging on to him. Mew cuddled him and started stroking his hair whilst ordering food. The feeling was comforting so Gulf ended up sleeping. Mew figured he would let him catch some sleep as food was going to take a while to get there.

Mew escaped as soon as he got the chance to. He collected all the blades and razors he could find in the house. He took the knives too and everything he thought was harmful and left it outside the door.

Food came and they ate silently. When Gulf was done, Mew gave him fever reducing medicine and anxiety medicine. The medicine made him drowsy so he went to bed.

He woke up at 3 am looking for Mew. When he didn't see him on the bed he started calling out frantically. Mew who had been sleeping on the couch woke up and approached gulf. He put him back in bed and watched him sleep again.

Gulf's clinginess was not normal. Mew thought. He was aware how much Gulf hated him and there was no way his hatred suddenly turned into something positive. Gulf was having an internal battle and it was not going to be an easy process coming to terms with his feelings.

When Gulf went to back to sleep Mew took Gulf's phone and used the Face ID option to open it. It took a few tries to open the phone since Gulf was sleeping.

When he did, he took Chet and Atid's contact information. He texted Chet and asked him if he could come to Gulf's house first thing in the morning.