Football babies

NOT AN UPDATE

JUST LET ME RANT REALLY QUICKLY

In all honesty ion really think that i can continue this book with Josiah being with Mani.

Ionk i just feel like me doing that to my character is just making it harder for me to actually let him go. It's safe to say that I just feel like I need to let him go cause ik he not thinking bout me how i think about him and what makes it worse is the simple fact that i love this boy with every bone in my body but it wasnt enough to make him wanna stay shit my love wasnt even enough to make Cai stay

and @shantelapple I know your gonna try to say them leaving wasn't my fault but it really was if you actually take time to think about it because with Josiah I was too over bearing like I texted him everyday, i was too clingy, but thats what I thought was right but it just stirred him in the direction of another female.

With Cai I believe I was clingy but it started to fade once I had a recurrence of taking her back so she felt lke she could do anything and I was just gonna come back like a lost puppy and the truth is Im HAPPY for her and ole girl I have no problem with either on of them

I just thought it was time to lay these two demons to rest but there is still one holding in there and I would just like you to tell Kaleel that I said what he did really fucked me up cause i was doing good but you wanna know how I found out that he was messing with you and Janaiya

remember the last time me you and janaiya was in the gc facetime call and you asked me were me and him together and i said no and then you told janaiya and she was like ok good for them then proceeded to say somebody feelings gon be hurt sooner or later and then i hung up and yall rung me back into the call and i kept hanging up. well i have learned that when the thoughts in my head get big enough to make me start overthinking every conversation, EVERY SINGLE TIME HE SAID ANYTHING AND YALL TALKING BOUT SOME OOP YALL GON HAVE KIDS i backed away and i did it for great cause. Cause clearly i was never needed in NONE of the three peoples lives that are listed and maybe im not good enough to make it out of the talking stage or friend zone whatever tf you wanna call it but just let him know this:

THAT WAS THE LAST TIME AND I DO MEAN THE LAST TIME I LET MY GUARD DOWN FOR ANYONE EVEN IF THAT INCLUDES MYSELF cause i'll be damned if i let somebody walk all over me again