Football babies

Not An Update

I need to vent:

So last night I was thinking and watching a video on youtube and the girl was just talking then she said if you have ever thought about kys and you haven't done it the reason is because you have somebody you care about but thats not the point the point is that when she said that you haven't done it because you know how much pain it would cause your family I DIDN'T cry on that part but as soon as she said you know how bad it would hurt you best friend I fucking broke down and started thinking about how much it would hurt her because don't get me wrong I know she would be with her other best friends and be happy but it's just the thought of having her be in pain because of me is painful because I try so hard but she is the only reason im here NOT my mom or dad but her. Then it was another one that was like if somebody had a gun to your head and they asked you what your last words would be i said my last words would be: THANK YOU. Mostly cause don't nobody care anyway so why should I?

BUT YOU WANNA KNOW WHAT I FIND SOOO FUNNY: HOW PARENTS CAN'T SEE THAT THEIR CHILD IS NOT THE SAM LOVING, CARING, KIND HEARTED KID THEY HAD WHEN THEY WHERE YOUNGER BUT THEY CAN ALWAYS SAY OH WELL YOU HAVE AN ATTITUDE AND YOU DON'T DO THIS RIGHT ALL THEY CAN DO IS POINT OUT WHAT YOU DID WRONG AND IF I HAVE SAID IT ONCE I'VE SAID IT A HUNDRED TIMES BUT WHEN I DO HAVE A KID OR 2 IM NEVER AND I MEAN N-E-V-E-R GOING TO TREAT THEM HOW I'M TREATED NOW BECAUSE NO ONE DESERVES THAT

@shantelapple I want to have a conversation with my mother but she won't listen even if i do try so i'm done trying with them