After sex cigarettes // dreamwastaken

XIX

I wake up hours later, Nick and Ena spooning opposite me fast asleep. I grab my phone and it shows 8:34 pm. I rummage through the cupboard finally finding microwave popcorn, I toss it in the microwave, I slug over to the settee.

He said he loved me. Was it just in the Moment, I'm sure there was no meaning behind his words, I just wish they were 'I hate you' instead of the complete opposite. I'm brought out of my thoughts by the beeping of the microwave. I grab the bag and reside to my position. I flick through the channels before I land on 'dexter'. It wasn't long before the too lovebirds appeared from my room
"Christ it's so loud" Ena moans
"What the fuck is this shit?" Nick looks shocked at the grim scene being played out "anyhow I have to go, we have recording" nick kisses Ena then leans down and plants one on my head.
"How are you" Ena whispers, leaning on the back of the settee, I don't verbally reply I just shake my head.

We have a girls evening, this consisted of me crying, dominos, Ena swearing cussing at Claire and Clay.

We sleep in Enas room, I take nicks place and spoon her
"Lara?"
"Hmmm?"
"You are good enough" he soft words send me to sleep.

It's Friday the something of June, about a week since the big debacle, the sun of beating down and all we can do is lie on the veranda.
"Let's to to Miami" I say to Ena
"What? Forever?"
"No you div, for a week, I'll pay for the accommodation"
"Ooooo yeah! We can ask Nick and..." she doesn't finish her sentence
"And clay, we had an argument, it's not the end of the world" my lips bruised from the amount I've been chewing it
"Are you sure?"
"Yessssss. We can get IDs, Barry the caretaker sells them!"
"And Why have you never told me this?"
"I didn't think it was useful". Ever since the big blow up I haven't seen clay, or heard from him, all I get is nick saying "clay needs me for a video" and off he runs.
"I'll call him now" she picks up her phone and it takes three rings before he answers
"What's up?" He's definitely eating "you're on loud speaker by the way"
"Perfect so are you. So we're going to Miami for a little while, do you and clay want to come?" I hear silverware getting dropped
"Yeah I'll be there! Clay do you want to come?" So he's having lunch with clay
"Erm, maybe, yeah I'll have to see. Nick we have MCC"
"When are you thinking of going" it's nicks turn
"Maybe Sunday or Monday? We're not too sure" I pipe in earning a "ugh"
"Yeah we're down. MCC isn't till the end of the month dude. Wait give me a second" he mutes, I shoot Ena a look and she just rubs my shoulder
"Also nick, if you want I can get you an ID, I'll text Barry now" he unmutes,
"clay still has to check but that's epic, let me know what I have to send over for the ID" the call shortly ends.

All Barry needs is good photo and our fake birthdays. He says since we're "pretty girls" he'll have them done by Sunday evening.

We end up packing out in the living area, going into our rooms to grab things when needed,
"Oh clays coming now"
"Oh?"
"Mhmmm. Nick said that he changed his tune all of a sudden"
"Oh". The conversation stops there. I'm dreading it, not being around him again but not being able to touch him, kiss him, be with him. I think I was blaming all this hate on his mum but it is all my fault, she was right, I just wasn't good enough, we'd never have worked. I distracted him from his work and he'd probably distract me from mine.
"So will you be okay on your own?" She pulls me from my thoughts, I don't really hear what she's saying but all I reply with is
"Yeah of course" I nod.

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Posted 14/11/21
              08:42