With You In A Coma

Chapter 33

3 days later 

My skin felt tender and itchy...they told me that would happen. My lady parts ached...they told me that was probable. I felt a new discomfort over the one my injury already incited. If it weren't for the cold compress bandage technology, I'd be whizzing and bawling.  

I was in pain. Nevertheless, I sat smiling in the oh so familiar Amka hospital cafe. They served me a soup most patients had after a successful surgery. I was happy to have just done a good deed but why did I feel so empty? As if a part of me had been ripped out. In fact, it was. 

I had retrieved my will from Dr Simmons three days ago just after my surgery but I couldn't find the courage to discard it. It wasn't necessary anymore, was it? I had survived the surgery and so I could survive more. 

Opening, I began reading like it was my first time seeing it. I gently whispered the words to myself. 

"I Daisy Lorelei Enya Azra Damaris residing at Shunn city, Amka town being of sound mind, declare this to be my Last Will and Testament. 

I appoint Sir Johnny Martinez as my personal representative to administer this will. If Sir Johnny Martinez is unwilling to serve, then I appoint Riley Damaris, my biological brother and guardian. 

Woah that sounded too official. Anyway, I just realized that I have no property  or belongings to leave to anyone.  So guys just donate my body to science. Tell them to use me as a cadaver or my skeleton to teach Tiago and Megan's kid one day. The little child must know the fibula and tibia of me the god mother. 

Then I started blabbering about my life as if someone wanted to read all that. I gave my closing remarks to all my friends as if I was wrapping up a speech. I facepalmed 'What a sorry excuse of a will.' I ripped it into shreds and dumped it in the nearest trash can. I wasn't the age to write a will. I was still too young to die.

I went back to my room and waited for visiting hours. Eldon's surgery was simultaneously done with mine but he'd take more time to recover. All I did was watch the clock in my pained state until the time had come. 

I was hesitant to walk into the room. It had been months since I'd seen his face. I remember how pale and lifeless he looked. Three days back, I had refused to see him because I knew I would have made a rash decision and given him both. Even still, I couldn't bring myself to face him. Had I been cheating on my sweet comatose boyfriend with a cruel mobster. The disrespect. 

My mind  trapped me in a cage I couldn't open. I stood by Eldon's room door my feet glued to the ground. 

'Don't beat yourself up. Go in there. I'm sure he misses you.' Nurse Simmons threw her hands around me. It took just that for the dam in my eyes to crack. I cried into her shoulder like her daughter would to her mother. 

'Mama.' I frowned at how foreign the word sounded to me. 

'I'll be your mama. Call me mom, call me mother...be my daughter. I hate to see you cry.' She wiped her thump across my cheek. I smiled at her although my heart was breaking. Did her and Doc Simmons really pity me that they stepped in yo be parent figures. Also, Sir Johnny had made himself my father figure before dad showed up. SG Garcia treated me like her daughter and now Nurse Simmons. Trust me, I wasn't complaining. I enjoyed having multiple parents driven by their love for me and not just force of duty.  

'Eldon, I've wronged him in so many unfair ways.' I groaned. 

'But you've also saved his life. Sometimes our rights write out our wrongs.' She pat my back and prompted me to get in. Gathering up my courage, I staggered into the room. 

As my eyes met his closed ones, I felt all walls crumbling down. I bit my lip blocking a river that was imminent. Eldon's face was the epitome of a ghost. So pale and unmoving that my heart shattered. I felt like going back into the OR and giving him all of me. 

'If only you could wake up for a moment...for one last conversation. Eldon please.' I sobbed. 'The truth is that I...I am not well. They call it the sword of demise...the knife that cut me. They say whoever falls at its wrath never survives. I'm scared Eldon. This world is scary and I can't do life without you. It's just too difficult. You've been my friend since 6th grade and so much more since grade 12. What is my life without you? I miss you so much.' Tears poured out uncontrollably.

Just like the last time I'd seen him, he didn't move a muscle. His face remained void of any emotion. I squinted my eyes as the tears kept coming. I'd already cried rivers but it seemed more of an ocean. My head ached and my nose became red and puffy.

'Eldon, three days ago I gave you a part of me. Please cherish it and never feel guilty for what happens to me after this. I'm about to make a whole load of crazy decisions.' I paused waiting for a reply I never got.

'I know you'll be mad about this too, but since this might be our last conversation I just have to. I'm sorry. I love Riker Elliot. Despite his flaws, his arrogance, his nonchalance, his bad manners and him being a ruthless mafia boss, I still find myself being drawn to him. I'm not sorry about my feelings but I'm sorry that I have to break up with you. Especially since you're in a comatose state. I know I'm evil for this and that's why I'm apologizing. But Eldon, never forgive me. Forget about me, move on, wake up and start on a clean slate without me. You deserve that much.' It took all of me to open and empty my heart. I hoped that he'd heard me and would indeed wake up and start afresh.

I stood up from his bedside feeling the sting in my side and the aching of my stitched skin. Holding Eldon's slim hand, I kissed his forehead, his cheek and then the other. I laid my head on his chest attempting a hug. 'It's not a goodbye right? Then I'll see you later Eldon Martinez.'

Falling to the floor beside his bed, I wailed. Knowing either one of us could survive this ripped my heart into a thousand fragments. Modern medicine wasn't on Eldon's side and ancient Chinese herbs weren't on my side. I couldn't help but scream and rip my hospital gown as I cried my eyeballs out. How did my life end up being this miserable?