chapter- 31

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"Dard humesha rahega mere dil mein aur pyaar bhi main kabhi aapko pareshan nahi karungi kabhi nahi. par iss dard aur pyaar ke saath jeene dijiye mujhe ..ye mera hai ..mera haq hai ye...jeene doge na aap?"

She asked with tears...

He was looking her speechless...

"Please...jeene doge na mujhe mere pyaar ke saath...chahe woh jitna bhi dard de ...chahe kitna dukh de... please...isse mujhse mat cheen na aap... please"

Her voice shivered...

Sid couldn't speak anything...

There was a huge silence around...

Her words gave him so much pain...he couldn't see her like this...

"Sana...Mai...main kaise samjhaun tumhe...?"

He murmured looking her closely...his Heartbeats were high looking her condition...

"Please..ab sirf yahi bacha hai mere paas isko..I love you...I love Pari...I can't stop loving you both par kabhi aapko pareshan nahi karungi sach mein kabhi nahi karungi trust me"

She sobbed looking him...

Her words gave him so much pain...

"Sana...Mai...kya..."

He couldn't speak anything...

Sid sighed... he was totally in shock with all her reactions ..

"Sana ye tum kya kar rahi ho....ye sab...."

Before he continues...she looked him with tears but she wanted to speak her heart atleast once....she couldn't keep this in her heart for life long....it was suffocating her ...

"Jo dil mein tha bol diya nahi ho raha tha mujhse.mujhe aapse tab se pyaar hogaya jab mujhe pyaar ka matlab bhi nahi pata tha..par kabhi bol nahi payi...dar tha kahi aapko kho na jaaun.."

She controlled her tears looking away...

"pyaar karna galat nahi hai na Sidharth ji..."

She couldn't control herself and spoke her heart once again...

Sid was looking into her eyes ...her words were doing something to him...there was a different feeling...

She looked him with tears and gave a smile...

The last night's incidents flashed in her mind....it was still horrifying her ...she was just looking at him..

She wanted to hug him once again to feel him once again but she can't he was just inches apart from her...but still she couldn't do that...

"Kai baar dil toot gayi thi main pagal ho gayi jaise hi chachi ne bola dar gayi par mujhe pata tha aapko kuch nahi hoga aur faisla bhi kar liya agar vapas aaungi toh aapke saath hi aaungi varna aaungi hi nahi..."

She sobbed...

"Aur uss waqt apne aapko rok nahi paayi bol diya maine nahi bolna chahiye tha par kya karun..."

She looked him...

He was looking at her...he wanted to be harsh to her and tell her she is wrong but he couldn't. Her innocent face and her eyes filled with love was giving him shivers ...

She looked him and gave a tight lipped smile with tears as she could read his face ...

"khud ko sambhal na mushkil ho gaya... shayad aapko meri haal kabhi samajh mein nahi aayega pagal hi samjhoge aap mujhe ..aur main expect bhi nahi kar rahi hun ...par aapko kisi aur ke hote hue dekh kar bahut toot gayi main...woh dard kisi ko na mile ...par sach keh rahi hun ..par humesha aapke khushi chahti thi....sach mein...par aapko pyaar karne se rok nahi sakti khud ko..."

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