5SOS Preferences

You're In Love With Him, But He Has A Girlfriend. (Part 3.)

Luke: You ended up falling asleep in your bedroom - you were more tired and confused than upset with Luke, but you really didn't want to have that conversation that was bound to come up if he continued to question you the night before, so you had to make yourself end the conversation before it could even fairly start. You got up out of your bed and made your way downstairs, yawning and trying your hardest to wake up before you tried to text Luke and Adalynn both and apologize for yesterday - even though you still believed you did nothing wrong. Once you got to the bottom of your stairs, you couldn't help but let out a small gasp at the sight you saw before you - Luke sitting on your couch in the same dress shirt and jeans from the night before, a disheviled look upon his face as he stared at the TV in front of him where the 5SOS music video for Good Girls played quietly across the screen. Had he slept here the night before? You couldn't help but feel a little guilty as you walked slowly over and sat next to him, patting him on the shoulder a couple times to catch his attention. "Are you okay?" You mumble, not really wanting to hear his answer - from the looks of his expression, he was still dwelling on the conversation from the night before and that was not something you wanted to deal with this early in the day. Luke turned towards you and raised his eyebrows, his blue eyes still dazed and confused and you knew then and there that this was going to be the one time when everything came out onto the table. "You think I don't pay attention and that you're not important because I have a girlfriend now, (Y/N)?" Luke blurts out, curling his eyebrows together as he goes over the thought in his head. "How could that thought come up? We've been best friends since we were little! Adalynn may be my girlfriend, but she'd never replace you! Why would you even question it?" Luke continues to rant on, not catching onto the fact that you weren't just jealous because you weren't getting as much attention from him anymore, but because you'd been in love with him since you can remember, and the fact that someone else could now call him their boyfriend absolutely crushed your heart. You sighed and leaned up on the side of the couch, now catching Luke's hands in your own to get him to stop talking and look at you. "Luke, I didn't just come up with that thought on my own, you know. I've had a lot of my feelings coming into play." You mutter out, causing Luke to sigh and shake his head. He was so confused with the whole situation and all he wanted to do was make things better between the two of you before he went back home to his girlfriend - whom was probably worried sick about him at this point. You looked at him and sighed, letting out a deep breath before you released his hands and opened your eyes wide to stare back into his - if you were going to say this, he had to know that you meant it. "Luke, I don't just get jealous because Adalynn takes your attention away from me. I don't just leave your dates while I'm third-wheeling because I'm bored. I do those things because I'm incredibly jealous that Adalynn gets to call you her boyfriend. She gets to hold your hand and give you kisses and sleep with you and wake up beside you - she gets to do the things I've wanted to do ever since we were younger, and that really kills me on the inside. So yes, I'm jealous of Adalynn because she took what made me happy. Is that better?" You blurt it all out, your cheeks red and eyes watery as you stare at the bewildered Luke sitting in front of you. It wasn't exactly how you wanted to tell him - you were glad you did, though. Now he knows that it isn't out of spite or hate that you try to distance yourself from him and Adalynn, it's because you're jealous and bitter and you want nothing to do with a couple that should involve you and Luke. "(Y/N), why didn't you say anything sooner?" Luke whispers, his voice so low that you were scared he was becoming mute. You look at him and shrug your shoulders, scraping absent-mindedly at your elbow as you bit your lip. "I knew it wouldn't have made a difference. We're best friends and always have been. I'd rather have you as a best friend than nothing at all." You reply softly, your heart starting to pump faster in your chest as you stared at the carpet beneath your feet. Luke sighed and moved closer to you, wrapping his arms around you as he engulfed you in a hug, mumbling as best as he could into your neck. "I love you, (Y/N). You should know that," He chuckles, making you roll your eyes. "I love you, but I love Adalynn in a different way, you know?" Luke asks as he pulls away from you, watching your eyes water more and more as you hear the news you were desperately hoping to avoid. You nod your head and start playing with your nails, doing anything to avoid eye contact with Luke since he was doing nothing besides killing you internally. "Don't cry, please?" He pleads as the tears start to fall - but what else were you supposed to do?