Losing Game • Lee Felix

{nine}

Wednesday
I waited awkwardly in the crowd for them to show up, looking at the guide I had made on my phone.
The only persons name I was sure of was Felix, and that was embarrassing.
Then the hall erupted in screams as I looked up, as all right of them filed out onto the stage, waving brightly.

I saw Felix, and my heart hammered.
It's too surreal.

They all continued talking, the translator blaring away in the occasion they couldn't speak in English.
I didn't need it, so I blocked the almost robotic voice out, as I kept my eyes trained on Felix.
I was a few rows back from the front, so he could probably see me.
They could probably see me, as I glanced away, and looked to all the others.

They were just messing around, and honestly it was adorable.
They spoke, laughed, and interacted with the crowd, known as 'STAY'.
I felt really bad being here. I mean, I didn't know literally any of their music, and I barely knew them.
I should've given my ticket to another fan who couldn't get in.

My thoughts were short lived as we all started lining up, albums being passed to us as we walked by.
Then before I knew it, I was standing in front of their leader, Bang Chan.

"Hi.. sorry I've never done these things before and my friend from Korea couldn't make it so I came- she wanted me to say hi for you, her names Mirae and she works at JYP entertainment so you might know her? Sorry I'm rambling." I sighed.
Bang Chan smiled. "You're okay! But your name please?"
"Y/N." I said simply, fiddling with my fingers for a second.
"It's nice to meet you Y/N. Don't be so nervous, we don't bite." He smiled, waving as I moved onto the next member.

It continued on like this. I didn't understand why I was so nervous, but as I spoke with each individual members, I felt my nerves tingle as I reached near the end of the table.
When I got to Felix, my heart sank.

"And you are?" He asked with a smile.
His deep voice was husky, familiar.

"Sunshine?" I breathed out.
He tilted his head. "Hm?"
"You're my sunshine." I whispered again, biting my lip to fight back tears.
He chuckled slightly. "Thank you.. your name please Miss?"

"Y/N." I said simply, marvelling at his features.
But it couldn't be. His eyes showed no recognition for me at all.

They were blank. It wasn't him.

I bit back my tears as I moved down the table, apologising to the last two members for my tear-stricken face, assuring them it wasn't them and I had 'dust' in my eyes.

When I got home that night, I cried.

Why am I so goddamn emotional?

Bang Chan was sitting with Felix in his hotel room.
"Did she recognise you?"
He shook his head. "Yeah, but I didn't give her a response."

Bang Chan grumbled. "I swear I am going to kill Mirae when we get back. She did this on purpose."

"Of course she did. She's jealous of her because I want to be with Y/N and not her." Felix scoffed. "I don't trust Mirae, not one bit."

"Nor do I, and she's got Y/N wrapped around her finger and we can't do a single thing about it without getting exposed. When we get back to Korea, go to that bloody arcade and assure her you're not Felix from Stray Kids. We can't have a repeat of what happened with Han happen to you."

Felix nodded. "I won't let that happen. Not to her."

Thursday
"How was the meet and greet? Any familiar faces?" Mirae asked, as I sat on FaceTime with her.
"That Felix guy and the guy from the arcade are so similar it's scaring me." I said, before letting out a sigh.

"It's all just an odd coincidence."

"I'm sure it's not. Maybe he has a doppelgänger, or like two personalities, or he's a twin! Although as an idol you would have heard if he had one." Mirae chuckled.
"Maybe the universe is just messing with me." I frowned.

"You'll see him again soon! Your sunshine, not Felix I mean." Mirae said, placing the phone down as she fixed her make up.

"How can you be so sure?" I asked.
She grinned.

"Y/N, my dear, I'm not sure, I know. Trust me."