The Perfect Sin

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I feel so comfortable. Relaxed and content. It's a feeling I haven't had for a long time and I've almost forgotten what it's actually like.

Stirring in my sleep, my eyes slowly begin to open at the sensation of soft kisses being left all over my face. "I'm going to kiss you until you wake up." Renzo murmurs against my ear.

He continues kissing me and I can't hide the bright smile that works it's way onto my face. He's here. He's still here.

Releasing a content sigh, I begin to laugh at his stubble brushing against my skin — which really fricking tickles. "Wake up, baby." He teases as he kisses my forehead.

"I'm not going to wake up." I grin, feeling his wam breath fanning my skin.

"I'll just have to keep kissing you then." He compromises.

Mhm, I can live with that.

I know he didn't mean those hurtful things he said before. He was just angry. He wanted me to see that I'm better off without him. He wanted to push me away so it would be easier if I hated him.

But I don't. I can't.

Even after all he's done and everything he's put me through, the feelings I have for him somehow outweigh it all.

"Wakey, wakey." He teases as he pulls on my bottom lip, causing my eyes to open. As soon as they do, they make contact with his beautiful brown ones. God, he's so handsome.

His tan skin, long dark eyelashes, big chestnut eyes, the stubble around his jaw, pointed nose, the slight creases on his forehead. He really is a beautiful, beautiful man.

"There we go," he says happily, looking down at me. "I was wondering if I'd be left here all alone for a moment."

His hand brushes against the inside of my thighs and I wince slightly, suddenly aware of the ache between my legs. Then the memories begin flooding back. We slept together. He kissed me, made me feel things I've never felt before.

I remember his words, praises and encouragement while he brought me closer and closer to the edge. He was amazing. It was amazing.

But then it suddenly dawns on me. "We didn't use anything." I say hurriedly.

As if he can read my mind, he props himself up on his elbow and brushes a lock of hair back from my forehead. "I'm clean, I promise. I always use condoms when I have sex." Except me. He says as he begins to trace patterns over my shoulder with his finger. "And you've been taking the pill, right?"

I nod my head, chewing on the inside of my mouth. I guess I was just a little worried, especially with knowing he used to be with Eva a lot and probably with plenty of others too. Oh god, wait, don't think about that.

"I'm sorry I didn't check with you first. I guess I was a little caught up in the moment. I should have made sure you were okay with it." He says and I begin to frown.

"No, it's fine." I assure him, knowing that he is probably thinking the same thing I am. "Really, I'm okay."

This is the first time I've been to sleep with Renzo in my bed and woke up with him still here. I don't want to ruin this by my overthinking. It's fine. I had the most incredible time. It's all good.