A New Feeling

**Chapter15**

**Carina**

When I opened my eyes I had to realize where I was. 
I was with Maya. 
I looked to the right and there she was asleep like an angel in the sunshine.
How can a person look so beautiful. 
I could watch her sleep for hours. 
As I looked at her I stroked her blonde angelic hair. 
How long have you been staring at me? 
Ohh I've been looking at you for what feels like an eternity, Bambina.
Buongiorno Bambina.
I think that will mean good morning then, right?
Absolutely right. 
Do you speak my language?  and she laughed. 
Oh no absolutely not I just thought it might fit.
And if i say baciami?
What do you think?
I have no idea.
I have no idea what it means but when you say it it sounds beautiful. 
Even though you may have just said that I stink. 
And Carina started to laugh. 
So you really have no idea what it could mean? 
No Carina I really have no idea. 
Do you want me to show you what it means? 
Yes, of couse. 
Come here. 
So I got closer. 
So what does it mean?  I show it to you.
She took her hand stroking my face came closer and put her lips on mine and kissed me. 
She puts her tongue in my mouth and our tongues moved in the same rhythm. 
The kiss became more and more intense and passionate. 
With one hand she stroked my upper arm and wandered down to my stomach. 
She slipped her hand under my shirt and moved up toward my breasts. 
When I felt her hand on a breast I let out a low moan. She rolled me onto my back and lay on top of me. 
We didn't break our kiss. 
With the other hand she wandered towards my waistband. 
When I felt her trying to put her hand down my pants, I stopped her. 
Carina, I can't do that. 
I just can't do it yet.  I'm so sorry. 
Hey Maya it's ok. 
You don't have to apologize for anything ok. 
Carina, I feel so attracted to you, but I swore I would do everything right with you, so no sex before the third date. 
Maya seriously? 
I'm serious about some things, I'm very traditional.  Ok I agree . 
So what does bac....  what was the word again.
You mean baciami? 
Yes, exactly that. You wanted to show me. 
I have that.  I'll show you again. 
And she kissed me again. 
Gentle this time. 
It means kiss me. 
Ohhhh I see. 
Can you say that again .
Si, Bambina.  Baciami. 
Ok i think i got it. 
Are you hungry Maya? 
And how I'm dying of hunger. 
Well, I'll get up now and make us some breakfast.  She got up and walked towards the door. 
Carina?
Si, what is it you need? 
Baciami. 
She came back gave me a kiss and headed towards the kitchen. 
As I lay there, I thought about how I deserved this woman. 
And realized that she's not even mine. 
What if she's gone for each other. 
What if she doesn't want to be in a relationship?  What if someone else crosses her path.
I'm starting to panic. 
I found it harder to breathe. 
I picked up my phone and texted Andy.

**Message to *Andy**

Andy we need to talk.
(Message send)

I put my phone back on the dessert table and got up.
When I came into the kitchen it smelled like delicious breakfast.
Wow Carina, what have you done, it smells so delicious in here.
Come here and I'll let you try it.
I stood behind Carina and she put a fork in my mouth.
That tastes wonderful.
Better than sex. That sounds like a challenge.
I kissed Carina on the shoulder and took the dishes and set the table.
We ate our breakfast together and kept looking at each other.
So Maya any plans for today?
To be honest yes.
She looked at me and said: „Oh ok, and which one?"
Carina, I have to go to work later, I have a conversation with Andy.
So feel free to do and do whatever you feel like, ok.
She looked down at her plate and just nodded her head. Her answer seemed so different than usual.
Was she disappointed or was she angry. Did I say something wrong.
Carina is everything ok you seem so different?
No, Maya, everything is ok.
Carina please look at me and tell me in my face that everything is ok.
She got up, looked at me and said in a loud angry voice: „I told you everything is fine, I'm fine."
And she went into my bedroom.
Something is wrong with her I can feel it.
But why doesn't she talk to me.
When I came into the bedroom, Carina was already dressed. Carina what are you doing ?Where are you going?
Maya you said I can do whatever I want, right?
So I got dressed and will do what I feel like doing today. She picked up her bag and went to the front door.
She opened it, turned to me briefly and said, „I'll see you sometime." Went out and closed the door behind her.
What was that was my thought.
Did I do something wrong or say something wrong.
Did I hurt her?
Why isn't she talking to me.