I'm Only A Fool For You [Kai Havertz]

•Chapter 23

!TW warning! Mention of family issues/ bullying/ physical violence

POV: Aurelia

"I-I'm sorry what?" I drop my phone, and nausea sets in. Kai rushes to my help and fiercely shakes my shoulders, but everything is fuzzy and I can't hear very well.

"I'm sorry, but I have to go" I say as I race upstairs to Kai's and my shared bedroom.  I close the door and rush to gather my belongings. I need to get to London as soon as possible.

Jayden, my younger brother, is only nineteen years old and already lives alone. My parents have plenty of money, yet they never showed love or affection to us. That is why, at such a young age, we both live alone. Jayden is an honest , beautiful person, but his classmates weren't. He was intelligent in school, but during the day he allowed his 'friends' to encourage him to do things he didn't want to do. 

I forced him to stand up for himself while I was still living with him and mum. I assumed that after I left him, my mother would help him, but she was more concerned about her new husband than about her son. Love is truly blind. I wish I could have spent more time in London, visiting him, calling him, and asking him how he was doing.

And I fucking blame myself for what happened to him. I just wasn't there when he needed me, why didn't he tell me he was being bullied again. Goddamnit, how could I be so stupid. 

"Hey, shhh, calm down love, take deep breaths" Kai enters the room and pulls me closer to him for a warm hug, while his hand slips beneath my top. His cold hands gently massage my exposed back. "I-" that's all I can say before I break down again. Why am I so fucking weak, get it together.

"Take your time, you don't have to force anything nor do you owe me an explanation" he continues to rub soothing patterns over my back and gives my head a small kiss.

After a while, he still holds me like this, only his shirt is now wet from the tears I have cried.

"I have a brother, Jayden" I begin, snuggling closer to his warm body. He lays his head on top of mine and hums, encouraging me and showing me he's listening. I feel guilty because I haven't told Kai this before. I may have talked about my family a few times, but it was quite a sensitive subject so we didn't talk about it much.

"He's the sweetest and kindest brother you could wish for, but I... I got a call that he..." I try my best not to cry again. "He was beaten up in the street by five old classmates. Five against one." This breaks my heart, what has he ever done wrong? 

In school he was bullied because of his appearance and behavior. He's just not your stereotypical London boy and that's all right, as long as he's happy. But that's the problem, he wasn't. Because we were not in the same classes, I had no way of knowing what had happened. He didn't say much until I noticed him crying in the restroom one day.

We talked for a long time. He didn't want to tell my mother, because he knew she'd claim she'd take care of it, but she never did. It's honestly disappointing. Eventually he found the right friends and did better mentally. By then I was old enough to live alone and decided to become roomates with Claire. 

We still sent and gave each other updates on our lives, but when he went to university we eventually lost contact.

"Oh, darling..." he pulls me back, wipes away my tears and gives me a comforting smile.

"Is he in the hospital now?" asks Kai, worried. I shake my head quite violently. Panic starts to rise again. My dear brother just doesn't deserve this. I stand up and start shaking my hands, as if the stress would go out of them.

"I must see him, I have to go to London"

The nurse had called me because there was no family present and that Jayden wanted me to come, which only meant that my mum didn't care and that my dad was on a business trip. Selfish, uncaring parents.

"I understand. I will order our tickets" He takes out his laptop and starts typing.

"Hey sweetie, we're waiting-, oh. Is everything alright, dear?" Kai's mother enters the room and notices the tears and my stressed expression. Kai shakes his head and Helene understands. She sends me a slight smile and walks out again.

"I...uhm, don't want to be rude, but I think I need to go to London alone" I sit down next to Kai and nervously fidget with my rings.

"Huh? I'm not leaving you alone, you need emotional support and-" I interrupted him. "Kai, you're in the middle of the Nations League! I won't let your boss get mad at you because of me!" He is slightly taken aback by my sudden outburst. But it's true, I won't let him get into trouble because I have to solve my problems.

"What? We are always there for each other."

"Please, I want you to focus on more important things than being my emotional support, I have to learn to take care of myself!" That sounded very rude, but the stress doesn't help my behaviour.

"You think football is more important than you? Seriously! I want to be there for you, but you keep pushing me away. You never really told me about your family and I respect that, but now suddenly you're telling me everything you've kept inside. You helped me, when is it my turn to help you?" 

"I'm sorry it's really not easy" What a stupid excuse. I really do love Kai, but when it comes to topics that are too sensitive, I feel uncomfortable and want to talk about something else as soon as possible.

"Whatever...I think I'd better play football" He says in an unpleasant tone, referring to what I said earlier.

Is he serious? I didn't mean it like that, I just want the best for him. Why doesn't he seem to get it? He takes his football from the room and closes the door with a loud bang. Frustrated tears leave my face. Why am I being so difficult and can't I just be normal?

What will Kai's parents think? I am here for one day and I have already made their son upset. Normally we never have such big arguments.

I have made the situation ten times worse. Well done. I stare at the door that Kai has just slammed and then start to throw some clothes into my suitcase. I have to be there for my brother. I wipe away the remaining tears and call for a taxi, while also booking the fastest available flight. Claire doesn't even know what happened yet. I will call her on the way, but what about Kai? I really don't want him to be mad at me.

I decide to write a note to the Havertz family, telling them in vague terms what happened to my brother. And I'm going to put a little note in Kai's training jacket saying that I'm sorry.

I walk downstairs and see that the rest of the family has already gone to sleep, only Chloé is still awake, getting her things ready to leave.

"Uhm, could you please give this note to Helene when she is awake?" I ask her since she seems to visit the family a lot.

"Sure, are you all right?" she asks, eyeing my suitcase. I shrug my shoulders. "Not really, but I have to go...don't forget to give the note and thanks"

She gives me another confused look, before I walk to my taxi outside. I look around to see if I can see Kai somewhere. But no, it is very late, would he really have gone to play football? It is not nice to leave like this, knowing that there is an argument between us. With one last look I get into the taxi and start calling Claire, with the worried feeling that is still present.

Author's note:

How are my dear readers? How was your day : )

This is only the beginning (the drama), so be prepared. And no, I am NOT going to let him cheat. That is just a tad bit too far.

 I don't even know if you can buy plane tickets and leave the same day, but let's pretend you can, okay?

There were also some problems uploading chapter 22, so hence the many reuploads.

 I'm finally done with my final exams, which means more updates!

Oh and do you want a sad or happy ending?

Lots Of Love

-Camille