I'm Only A Fool For You [Kai Havertz]

•Chapter 24

POV Kai:

Fuck. I really screwed up.

I wasn't really going to play football, what I had said yesterday just slipped out of my mouth without thinking about it first. I shouldn't have done that. Stupid me.

I actually went for a night walk and phoned Julian about what had happened. He really is the best friend you can have. It was a miracle that he answered around 1 am. He even asked if he should come here, but I refused his proposal, because the hotel where he is staying is too far from Aachen.

The advice he gave was short and simple. I had to go and see her as soon as possible and make it up to her, tell her where our mistakes lay and correct them for the future.

I thanked him and ran back home as fast as I could, but to my misfortune the taxi was just leaving. My hand made its way through my hair in frustration.

So here I am, on my way to the hotel where all the players have to stay for the Nations League.

This morning my parents didn't ask me many questions, so I suppose my mother has told the rest of the family what she saw yesterday. My heart still hurts, but I have no choice but to go to training now. I need to make Aurelia proud, even though I don't feel good about going to training in this situation.

I don't dare to call her or send her a message, because I'm afraid that she's really angry with me. Maybe she doesn't want to see me again? Perhaps I should give her the distance she wants.

Oh lord. I run my hand over my face as I stand at a red traffic light. I can't wait to talk to Julian about it in person.

POV: Aurelia

"Fuck, fuck, fuck!" I push my way past all of the passengers in the airport as quickly as possible so that I can board the plane on time. "Excuse me" I apologise while bumping into a few people on my way to the gate.

My stress level is growing, my feet hurt, my brain throbs, and my hands tremble. Nothing, and I mean nothing, could have prepared me for this day.

I haven't heard from him after our huge argument before I left to go back home. I get his point, that he wanted to come along and cares about me. But this is something that I needed to do alone, and I couldn't stand in the way of his football career. I don't want to be selfish and make the same mistakes again.

Kai's recently doing better mentally and physically. I have helped him through that journey and I hope that I'm now not the disease that made him bad again, because I'll never forgive myself.

The plane has finally landed and Iris' car is waiting in front of the airport with Kate in the back seat. I called them on the plane to ask if they could pick me up.

They both look at me with pity. An expression I do not find very pleasant. I slide into the back and quickly thank them for coming to get me. "Thank you guys" I give them a soft smile and then give them the coordinates of the hospital.

•••

I gasp in shock as I walk into the hospital room.

A black eye. Many cuts on his face and wires attached to his body.

How can someone hurt someone else like that. What world are we living in? It's a horrible sight to see him like that.

I quietly step closer to him and settle down on a hospital chair. I stroke my hand through his hair and give him a gentle kiss on his forehead. Then I take his hand in mine. Somehow I feel so guilty.

"Hey...you made it" his once-vivid eyes flutter open looking me in the eye. I am doing everything in my power not to start crying again.

"Of course I'm here, Jay. How are you?" I give his hand a little squeeze and see a smile form on his face.

"I feel better than I did yesterday. Thank you for visiting" he says sincerely. He tries to get up, but I gently push him back down.

"Uh uh, we're not going to do that. What do you need?" I ask him. He nods his head towards the TV remote which I then give.

He turns on the TV while I stare at the wall in the distance, lost in the train of my thoughts. My head is completely blank.

"That's your boyfriend, right?" Jayden points to the TV screen with the remote. "Huh?" I turn in the chair toward the direction of the TV. "Oh"

"Oh?" he asks confused with a small smile.

The first match of the Nations league was going to start this evening and we're already half past eight. Germany against Spain. And there in all his beauty he is walking.

Jayden and I sometimes gave each other updates, and Kai often came up in our conversations. He was a little sceptical at first, but quickly accepted Kai.

"Yeah he is" I fidget with my hands again. A habit of when I'm nervous.

"Stop doing that" says Jayden a little annoyed.

"Doing what?"

"Fidgeting with your hands and looking at me like it's your fault I ended up here. You didn't do anything wrong, big sis."

I slump deeper in my chair and apologize. There is a silence present with only the sound of the beeping machines and the football game in the background. The sound of my phone breaks the silence.

                              Lea :))

-I really liked you as a friend,

but for you to say

something like that

about my family

really disappoints me.

What are you talking about?

-Your note

Just as I was typing, my phone shut down. Dead battery.

What is she talking about? In my note, all I talked about was how I had to leave due to an emergency and that I thought they were a great family. So is that not a compliment anymore?

Then it hit me. Chloé.

She was the one I gave my note to. She wouldn't have done anything with it, would she? Oh God, this is bad.

POV Kai

"Jule, have you seen my training jacket?" I shout in the stadium corridor. He shakes his head and gives me a spare. I must have forgotten it at home.

"Come on guys, the warm-up is about to start" Thomas Müller pats me on the back and hops out cheerfully.

He is bubbling with energy again, how he never gets tired is a miracle. I let out a little laugh which vanishes soon when I think of reality again. I need to clear my mind and focus on the match. This is the only way to succeed. The only way to forget her for a while.

What am I telling myself, I can never forget her.

The family and Chloé decided to watch and support me, which is very sweet. Lea acted a bit strange, as if she had something to say, but I guess it's my imagination.

Okay now I have to stop thinking or I will become paranoid. We start with stretching exercises and run a few laps.

Author's note:

Hey, I'm sorry if y'all don't like some chapters, but I'm trying my best <3

Lots Of Love

-Camille