A Hundred Billion Worth

Kabanata 29

Kabanata 29

Tamed

I stiffened.

He stopped.

Ilang minuto kaming tahimik sa gano'ng posisyon. Hindi ako gumalaw kahit isiniksik niya na ang mukha niya sa leeg ko na parang nanghihingi ng paumanhin. Naramdaman ko ang kamay naming nakaposas. Mas humigpit ang pagkakahawak niya sa kamay ko nang unti-unti kong inalis ang pagkakahawak niya sa akin.

"No." he said under his breath. Naramdaman ko agad ang mainit na paghinga niya sa leeg ko.

"Calla... Maglalaba ka ba Lordcan?" Wala sa sariling tanong ko kahit alam ko namang pangalan 'yon ng isang babae. "Teka..." tuluyan ko ng naalis ang kamay niyang nakaposas na nakahawak sa akin.

"Fuck." he growled against my neck when I free myself from his grasp. I can feel the frustration in him as deep inside he's trying to restrain himself.

I smiled and planted a rough kiss on his earlobe.

Rough.

Right. Kahit may ideya na ako tungkol kay Calla na posibleng ito ang namatay niyang girlfriend ay gusto ko pa ring malaman 'yon na galing mismo sa kaniya.

Kaya siguro nasabi niya ang pangalang 'yon dahil sa paraan ng paghalik ko sa kaniya at hinahayaan ko lang kung ano ang gusto niyang mangyari. My actions reminded him of his obedient late girlfriend. Soft and gentle.

I should be rough and harsh as him.

Ayokong maalala niya ang namatay niyang girlfriend sa akin. I want him to see me as another girl and not the girl from his past.

Wait. Why am I thinking about this?

Wala akong pake. 'Di rin naman siguro ako magtatagal sa kamay niya.

Am I thinking of leaving him?

Napapikit ako nang kung anu-anong klaseng bagay nalang ang pumapasok sa isip ko. Parang hindi ako 'to. Bakit parang nag-iba ako sa tuwing pumapasok sa isip ko ang tungkol sa nakaraan niya?

"Tell me about Calla." I whispered huskily and as rough as him. I ran my lips to the sides of his ears, teasing him.

It's payback time, baby.

Hindi ko alam kung anong nararamdaman ko pero bakit parang galit ako? I'm not supposed to feel this thing. Dahil sa totoo lang? Parang kinukulong niya pa ang sarili niya sa nakaraan na kahit ang pangkasalukuyan niyang buhay ay naging isang sinungaling na lang para sa kaniya.

"Lordcan... Who is Calla?" ulit ko nang hindi siya umimik. I can feel his heavy breathing, his back was moving up and down.

"I don't want to talk about her." bakas sa boses niya na ayaw niya talagang pag-usapan ito. Isang senyales na talagang kinukulong niya ang sarili niya sa nakaraan.

Haven't he moved on?

"Then tell me about yourself." I distracted him by kissing him in a harsh way. He should think that it's me and not the Calla girl.

"No." matigas niyang sabi. Wala na akong nababakas sa boses niya. Just his plain deep voice.

I'm still wearing my cap until now. Buti hindi nahulog.

"No?" natatawa kong tanong sa kaniya. I'm saying that his answer was ridiculous. "How can I be with someone if I don't even know what's that someone's name? You even dared to ask me for a marriage." I bit and licked his neck until it becomes reddish.

I'm marking him.

I didn't know that I can do this to him and he even did not dare to protest and stop me.