Brothers

5| I want my mama (flashback)

Still the flashback-

Alexander's pov-

I just couldn't believe it she's gone. I couldn't stop shaking. We left the hospital about 5 minutes ago because they had to put me on oxygen because I was having a panic attack. But anyways how will I tell my kids. They are never gonna forgive me. The twins are only four for fucks sake! "Hey dude calm down," Greyson one of my brothers said hugging me. "We will all be there with you," he continued.

10 minutes later-

We're here. I feel another panic attack coming. I feel my legs getting weak. I can't do it. I can't. I can't tell my kids that their mother is dead! They don't deserve this. As we reached closer to the door the triplets flung it open. "DAD! Dad! We missed you! Hi grandpa, grandma, uncle Greyson, and Alfonzo!," they said giving us all hugs.

"Wait. Mommy was with you. Where's mommy? I want mommy. I need to show her my picture I made!," Nico said running out the door. I couldn't hold back my sob that time. All of my boys are mommas boys but Nico and her are just alike. All of my children have similarities to their mother but my Nico he has her fire in him.

"Hey boys let's all go sit down where's everyone else?," Greyson spoke.

"They are in the game room!," the triplets yelled running to the living room racing. I just can't do it. They are so happy right now. I can't.

"Come on Nico let's go sit. We're having a family meeting," my mom said picking him up.

"But grandma where's mommy?," He said looking at her waiting for the answer.

My dad went to the intercom and said "family meeting everyone in the living room."

I turned to Alfonzo and said "I think I should tell gio and mars first. I think they deserve to know and to be able to handle it without the littles."

I felt hands wrap around me "papa! Papa!" My twins yelled.

"Hi my babies," I said picking them up.

"Ok guys we first need to speak to gio and mars first so you littles go get some ice cream with grandma!," Alfonzo spoke.

"Papa what's going on? Where's momma?," gio spoke to me. I stared at my oldest kids.

"Boys I'm so sorry," I said looking at them.

"Papa what happened?," mars spoke.

"You two come here," I spoke opening my arms. My boys didn't think anything of it just came to me. "Boys I'm so sorry, but your mom has p-passed away," I said sobbing. I felt them shaking.

"No. No. No. Haha funny prank your lying. Where's momma? Momma! Momma! It's not funny come out!," Marcello said yelling.

"Buddy we're not lying she passed away. I'm so sorry," Alfonzo said sobbing. I saw the color drain from Marcello's face. He started to sob. My dad grabbed him so I could check on Gio.

"Gio?," I said. He looked up to me. Nothing was shown on his face. I could see his breathing was not good. "Buddy I need you to breath for me," I told him trying to get him to normal breathing. I tried everything to get his breathing normal. "Greyson go get me a oxygen mask," I spoke trying to help my child. Greyson came back with what I asked for. I put it on Gio hugging him. When his breathing got normal I spoke again "buddy do you feel better now?"

"Papa I miss her," he spoke barely above a whisper.

"I do to bud," I told him. Marcello ran over to me hugging me. I just sat there hugging my oldest two children. "Boys I have a question. Do you want to be in the room when I tell the littles?," I asked. Both of them said yes. "Before you two do anything we need to get you some water and maybe we can get y'all a snack," I spoke.

5 minutes later-

I had Greyson and Alfonzo bring a few more oxygen masks out incase we needed them. I had the  twins on my lap, Nico beside me, Dante on my other side, and the triplets wanted my mom so she sat close to me same with everyone else.

"Ok so guys. This is a big talk ok? I need all of you to listen to me with your best listening ears," I spoke staying strong for my kids. "So tonight your mom passed away. Now you may not understand right now but when your older you will," I finished speaking and turned to see Dante and Nicos faces drain. I pulled my Arms around them telling them to let it out. I saw Alfonzo getting the twins so I could comfort these two.

"But papa what about my picture? Momma didn't see it! I want my mama," Nico spoke sobbing.

"Shhh bud I will look at your pictures and we will hang them up! How about we make a special one to put in mommas casket," I spoke to him. He looked at me with those blue eyes.

"I will papa! I will! Can you help me?," Nico said.

"I will, but not right now. How about you bring your pictures down to show everyone!," I told him. He got up and ran upstairs. I looked down at Dante. "Ant(another nickname for Dante) how are you doing?," I spoke to him

"I miss her papa," he told me hugging me tighter.

"I know ant," I said hugging him to. I looked at my triplets next. They were all crying so I called them over to me. That made Dante perk up. He hates seeing his brothers and sister sad. That made him stop crying and help me comfort them. I got Emiliano away from Dante and told Dante that he needed to go get a drink of water. I talked to my triplets for a while, but they got tired from all the crying. So with the help of Gio and Mars we made them a place on the couch. I placed them all there making sure that we had a good barrier around them so they wouldn't fall. I then looked at my twins. I walked over to them. "Hi my babies," I talked rubbing their backs. I picked them up and talked to them. They cried for a while but fell asleep. I made them a little place on the couch to when Nico came downstairs.

"Here papa! I made these," he told me with a smile. I looked at them and talked to him for a while when I made him lay down so he could sleep. The rest of the night went like this. But I finally got all of my kids asleep. I told my parents and siblings they could leave but they said no. At that time I felt like I could do this alone and fell asleep.