I miss you so much,
it's killing me.
Nothing I can do,
except sit here in tears
and break apart.
I was so scared,
I never wanted to lose you.
damn it, I'm insane,
but I didn't want
you to see it, too.
I need you,
so much it scares me,
and now I just can't let go.
I wish it had turned out different,
I wish I had been different.
You were an angel,
your eyes were so bright.
But I never thought you'd do this,
you said I was your everything.
I'm not even a thought,
a flash in your mind,
you don't care about
the way that I cried.
Because I wasn't good enough,
because I was broken.
I tried to hide it,
but you saw it.
Only for one second,
like the beat of a heart,
but it was long enough.
You saw it and ran.
We loved for over a month,
secrets and kisses shared,
but it only took a second to
tear it all apart.
The time in the space,
the beat of a heart.
I want to disappear.
And I will.
Pain meds, ironically.
And then I'll be gone.
In the beat of a heart...
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Musings of the Insane
PoetryThis is more or less a sequel to Nightmares, only this one will mostly be freestyle poetry. The same warning applies to this one. Also, if easily triggered, do not read, please. Thanks and enjoy.