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yang jungwon's personal diary
page, 1.
february 9th, 2020
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no one has come despite the invitations i have sent out.
honestly, what did i expect?
no one in my family sees me as apart of the yangs.
but.. what have i done wrong?
is it because i refuse to even utter a word with my mouth?
or am i just a disappointment in general?
i was born like this.. theres nothing i could've done.
you're so delusional, yang.
no one fucking loves you.
might as well end it all already.
you're just a waste of space, do it already. why hesitate?
is this why my parents don't love me?
i'm the reason my mother died, anyway.
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yang jungwon's pov
its been a few years since the incident that has left me traumatized me for months.
i grew up in a quiet household. conversations weren't longer than 5 words because there just isn't enough to talk about. so, this led me to think that talking wasn't necessary. i didn't talk for a few years until i lost the courage to speak from that day.
it's okay, though. getting bullied is like my daily routine. it would be strange if one day i suddenly stopped getting harassed. although i do wish for that day to come, it's just hopeless.
ever since that day, i've been carrying around a blue notebook in order to have some sort of way to communicate.. unfortunately, thats become another reason for people to come and pick at me. it had smiley stickers and a header 'yang jungwon'.
i'm so childish, right?
once again, what did i expect.
we had to move houses a few days after i got brutally fucked up in an alleyway after refusing to cooperate with some.. dickheads. and those dickheads were the friends of my "bestfriend".
we moved in to a small house, located a few miles east from the downtown part of the massive city seoul. the house was simple since i was only living with my father and his girlfriend.
they didn't really talk to me and when they did, it was like a truckload of insults that they randomly generate throughout the day.
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𝓱𝓲𝓼 𝓿𝓸𝓲𝓬𝓮 ෴ 𝓼𝓾𝓷𝔀𝓸𝓷
Fanfictiona depressed mute boy, desperately wanting to end it all. until a popular guy witnesses the boy trip over himself one morning. this whole story is purely fictional. ⚠️TW:bullying, fatshaming, eating disorders, abuse(physical and emotional), self-harm...