Forced Marriage

Chapter 27

Kabanata 27

Negative..

Yumuko ako, why? Why can't I get pregnant?

" I don't understand.." wika ko naguguluhan sa nangyayari.

" Did you have your period? " he asked.

Umiling ako. " Hindi, I'm five days late on my period. I thought it should indicate something but then...my periods have been always inconsistent. " Maliit kong sabi.

He sighed ang hugged me from behind.
" It's alright Isabelle, we have a lot of choices. C'mon it's 21st Century, we can adopt. " Wika niya.

Nangilid ang luha ko, ofcourse that's a no. We can adopt but what's the purpose of this marriage when I can't bear his lineage..

Umiling ako. " It's different Arthur, " hindi ko maiwasan ang sakit sa boses ko.
Suminghap ako. " Am I infertile? " I asked my growing fear.

Humigpit ang yakap niya. " Don't say that. " Wika niya.

" I grew up with weak immune system. I always wonder why I don't have a sibling and Dad would say to me it's very difficult for my mother. I was a miracle child they said, maybe..maybe I got it from her and maybe worse. " I said.

He sighed. " C'mon, it's still early. " He says but his voice we're bit deeper giving me a hint that he's also disappointed but just trying to hide it.

That thought placed a dark cloud in my mind for days and then weeks. Everytime I check but there was really nothing.

My heart felt heavy, we tried and tried again. But there was nothing..

I didn't try to consult a doctor. Takot na takot ako malaman na totoo nga talaga ang hinala ko.

And everytime I think of many other women who could give him a child, it would give me an intense anxiety.

Like when I saw Stacey. It was a normal Tuesday, I was staying outside trying to find a place to enjoy with Gustavo as my driver when I saw Stacey went out in a black sedan with rich red body con dress.

Hindi ko mapigilan mapalingon sa kanya at nang lumabas ang driver ng sasakyan ay napaawang ang labi ko.

Arthur!

Kumabog ang puso ko at literal kong naramdaman ang sakit. He glanced at her and they went in the restaurant together.

Gustavo moved the car and I shouted.

" No! Dito lang, sandali. " I said. He stopped and looked at me in confusion before he nodded.

Nilingon ko ang resto. I can barely see them from the glass window. They took their order. Nanlalamig ako. My heart is pounding so loud as I watch them face each other while eating.

Why..

There's no reason they should talk and in a resto privately! What are they trying to do? Nangilid ang luha ko.

Hindi ko na kinaya. " P-Please, bring me to the condo. " I said.

Hinatid niya ako. I went in our room with a heavy heart. Pumasok ako sa shower at pinaandar ang tubig. I went in with my clothes and dropped and cried my heart out.

I'm so insecure..

Surely Stacey..she can give him a child. Moreover, she was his first love. They were friends and she knew him a lot.

While I can't even bear him a child no matter how much we tried.

Should I confront him? Ask him why he's with her? Ask him why he is now suddenly seeing her? Would it be worth to confront him?