Teardrops Of Justice (Under PIP Collab) ✔️

04

"Where are you come from?" magkasalubong ang kilay ni Jossiah habang nagtatanong. Prente siyang nakasandal sa pintuan ng condo. He looked tired.

I want to touch him and comfort him. I know that I'm being a burden to him. Pero kung aalis ako dito, saan ako pupunta?

Si Jossiah na lang ang meron ako. He's the only family that I can lean on.

"I'm sorry," I said as I bow my head. I started to bite my lips, I felt so reckless. How could I forget that someone is waiting for me? That he was there to waiting for me to come back home.

Unti-unti siya sa aking lumapit hanggang sa magpantay ang aming mga mata. There's something in his gray eyes that everyone will fell in love.

"Please, stop bitting your lips," he said like he begged for his life. "Stop hurting yourself." pagsusuyo niya. Ang mahahaba at malalambot niyang kamay ay masuyo niyang pinaglakbay sa aking labi.

"From now on, you'll stop hurting yourself. No one can hurt you, I promise," he said full of assurance. Na parang tatahakin niya ang lahat matupad niya lang ang kanyang pangako.

"Thank you for saving me when the dark consuming me," I said, thankfully. I embraced him wholeheartedly. Ramdam ko ang init ng bisig niya.

"I feel like I'm obligated to protect you from the world," mahina niyang bulong habang at mas hinigpitan ang yakap niya sa akin. He buried his face in my neck.

Hindi ko gaano napansin ang kanyang salita.

After our conversation I went to the kitchen to cook a food for our dinner.

"I'm sorry I can't cook," he apoplectic said.

"Then I'll cook for us. Thank you for giving me home." I smiled.

Its been a while since I smiled but today I fight for my life. Hindi ko na hahayaan muli na mawasak ako ng mundo.

He just shrugged. Nagpatuloy ako sa aking pagluluto. And we ate our dinner. Nang matapos na kami ay agad din kami nagpahinga. We shared the same bed. I'm addicted to his warmth. Kahit kailan hindi niya ako hinayaan na maramdaman ko muli ang lamig ng malupit na mundo.

"Malapit ka na mag-college," I suddenly said.

He cuddled me until he's satisfied of our position. "Legal Management. I want to be a Criminal Lawyer," he said without hesitation.

I saw his eyes sparkling the way he think about his future. Na para bang matagal na niya gusto maging abogado. He is passionate to fight for justice and be one of the change.

I'm already imagining him passiang the bar exam, being a licensed lawyer, fighting for law, marrying him and having a family to my Attorney.

Ang mahalaga ay sa akin siya uuwi.

"How about you? I can enroll you to another University." he suggested.

"Bakit hindi pwede same University na lang tayo?"

Marahan siyang umiling. "Puno na ang slot for college. I try to contact the other University," he explained.

Every since I was young, I admire the journalist. Ang matapang nilang pagsasalita para sa katotohanan. And I want to use my own voice to give hope and inspiration of healing to everyone who's sinking on darkness.

"I wanted to be a journalist." my voice is full of finality.

He's a lawyer who'll fight for justice and I'm a journalist who tell people about hope.

Bata pa ako noong lumapit ako sa kanya at nagdasal. I forgot about prayers but today I want to asked him Jossiah. Kahit si Jossiah lang ang itira niya sa akin ay ayos na ako.

He took away my family, and I have no idea why he let my life ruined in one snap. People often say, that every tragedy happened has reason. That you we're here because of God's plan. Please, let me heal, let Jossiah stay until I can say that you don't ruined me for bad. That you shattered me because I need to use my voice to save people from darkness.

Time flies so fast that I didn't realized that Jossiah started to attend his college and I passed the entrance exam.

KINAUMAGAHAN ay agad din ako nag luto ng almusal namin. Jossiah is still asleep. After I cook for our breakfast, I write my book. I left the Mental Institution, 5 months ago but I already built my name on writing world. I'm now a well-known writer of 'Fairytale Series'. A children's book literature who tackles about the misfortunes of princess who need to be saved by a price.

"What are you doing?" Jossiah suddenly asked me. Hindi ko nga namamalayan na andyan na pala siya. Naramdaman ko ang yakap niya sa aking likuran.

"Good morning, cheerub." hinalikan niya ang aking noo.

"I'm writing for my next update. A big publishing house wants me to be their next rising star!" masaya kong sabi.

"You literally grow. I'm so proud of you," nagnining-ning ang kanyang habang niyakap ako ng mahigpit.

Patuloy ako aasa na ito na ang simula ng aking paghilom.

"Nagsisimula na ang first semester namin. Wait for me," paalam niya.

He excitedly eat his breakfast while I was left hanging by.

I hope he didn't forget my 18th birthday?

Nang makakain siya ay agad din siya lumabas. I fix his hair and his polo. Kinuha ko na din ang mga gamit niyang kailangan. I don't think if I can sleep without him. I just started to adjust from the world.

Nang maka-alis siya ay pumunta agad ako sa market para bumili ng mga kailangan. I received a lot of compliments regarding to my book and Jossiah gave me allowance for groceries and even to my own necessities.

I saw a small cake and I immediately buy it. Umuwi agad ako sa condominium at inihanda ang mga handa ko. Today is my 18th birthday. I don't really celebrate my existence. Ito ang unang kaarawan ko na ididiwang na may ngiti sa aking labi.

Nang wala na ako magawa ay nagsulat muna ako at natulog. When I wake up, I saw the clock at 8pm.

Lumabas ako ng condominium to habang dala-dala ang maliit na cake. Gusto ko salubungin siya. If he forget my 18th birthday at least I can be able to tell him.

Naglakad-lakad muna ako hanggang sa makarating ako sa kalsada. My heart melt seeing the homeless people. Hindi na ako nagdalawang isip na ibigay ito sa kanila.

I dialed Jossiah's phone number but his not answering my call. Nang mapagod ako kakatayo ay umupo ako sa malamig na sahig ng kalsada.

After one hour I received a text message from him.

My attorney :

Sorry, I can't make it. Two days akong mawawala for school purposes. Take care of yourself, cheerub. Babawi ako after this.

So, he forget about my 18th birthday.

He know that I don't have a family to celebrate with, I don't have someone to cry with and someone who will remember every single details of me. Siya ang inaasahan ko perpetual hindi siya dumating. Just his presence.

Nang bumugso ang malakas na ulan ay tuluyan na akong nanghina.

I celebrated my 18th birthday in the midst of road, while the heavy rains started to poured.

'How can you overcome the pain?' he once asked me.

No, I never heal. I just learned to live in the arms of tragedy and agony.