Teardrops Of Justice (Under PIP Collab) ✔️

08

After a hours of being numb, I bravely open my eyes. I know that I'm inside of the hospital. Ang tagal ko dito nanirahan and somehow it felt home. The smell of painful reality, the white sheets and the home of what ifs.

"Don't move. You're still healing, you have a high fever. I'm sorry." guilt evident in his misty eyes.

"Sorry?" I asked back.

Bumuntong-hininga siya bago lakas loob ako muling harapin. "Kung hindi sana tayo naligo sa ulan, kung hindi sana-,"

I immediately stop his sentence.

"Hindi ko sana mararansan ang magkaroon ng pag-asa. Hindi ko sana mararansan ang maging masaya sa kaarawan ko. Stop saying sorry. Thank you because it happened. Maybe that's my calling, that I'm being tested to be my own savior. To be independent enough for myself and fight this demon within. To win and to move on. To forgive and heal. Maybe it supposed to happen because something is out there that I should figured out while fighting alone."

Tanggap ko na. Tanggap ko na hindi sa lahat ng sugal at laban ay kailangan may kakampi ako.

Not all war, I can find an ally. That it happened because I need to be my own soldier. I'm born to be fighter, and remember this day I said, that I'll survive no matter how cruel the battle field is.

"Oum, about my hospital bill," nahihiya kong sabi.

A small chuckled escaped from his sexy mouth. "Nothing to worry about. Haven't I told you? This is our hospital. I'm studying Medicine. Be my lawyer and I'll be your cure." hindi ko alam kung anong klaseng kalandian ang meron siya but somehow it made me smile.

Dahan-dahan siyang umupo sa tabi ko hanggang sa magkapantay kami.

"I know you're not okay. Even if you don't tell me, I already have a hint of what's happening. But you don't deserve it. You don't deserve a love that too immature for you to handle, a love that brings pain and the love that will leave, eventually." he gently caressig my head. "You deserve a love that stay, a love that gives effort and love that will choose you no matter how painful the situation is," magaan niyang sabi.

It won't ease the pain, the wounds won't easily heal but I believe in the process.

A nurse suddenly bumped in our room.

"Percival, your dad is looking for you. Nagkakagulo sa children ward, kailangan ka," nagmamadali niyang sabi.

Nakita ko ang pangamba sa mga mata ni Percival. I gave him a assurance smile. Pero may pagdadalawang isip parin siya.

"Kailangan ka ng mga bata, Doc. They are rooting for their future Doctor. Go ahead, and save them. Hihintayin kita dito." I warmly smiled.

There's still pain, a agony longing in my soul and bitterness for what happened.

Wala sa sarili siyang sumunod sa Nurse. Habang naglalakad ay luminga-linga pa siya sa akin. Hindi maalis sa kanyang mapupungay na mata ang pag-aalala.

Nang mapansin ko na nakalayo na siya ay agad ko inalis ang mga naka-kabit sa aking pulso. Kahit nanghihina ay agad ako umalis ng hospital. I felt guilty for breaking my promise to him. Pero kailangan ko ito gawin.

I rented taxi. Hindi ko alam kung saan ako pupunta o kung saan ako dadalhin ng laban ko pero ayaw ko na ipagsiksikan pa ang sarili ko sa isang tao. Onwards of this day, I promise, I won't beg for someone's love and attention.

May ipon pa naman ako galing sa mga sinusulat kong pang batang kwento and I think that's enough to start a new life.

It is not luxurious like when I was in Josiah's arm but it will start my healing process.