Teardrops Of Justice (Under PIP Collab) ✔️

09

I made myself comfortable in my new place, my new home.

It is challenging, yes, but life must goes on despite how wounded you are. One thing I learned while battling my demon and facing the world's never ending battle is no one will going to udjest to your suffering. Hindi hihinto ang mundo dahil pagod ka o nasasaktan. You need to move your ass and fight. Find your own healing as you continue your journey. Mahirap ang mag-isa, oo. Pero kailangan mo matuto because once you overcome and learn from it, you will survive everything.

"Shein, nakahanap ka na ba ng University? I know how busy you are right now, but you can't miss this oppurtunity!" my editor said in excitment.

Nilayo ko ng kaunti ang cellphone ko sa aking tainga bago hinarap ang aking niluluto.

"Yes, I got admitted in University as Senior High School student and I'm planning to take pre-law and become a lawyer in the future," I said as I'm obliged to tell so. I want to be a lawyer to be a voice to every wrongful accused. Because maybe I can't fight for myself.

"To much information but good luck. I want to tell you that one of the biggest publisher in writing world offered you a slot in their company. Nabasa niya lahat na children book literature mo at gusto ka niya personal na hasain ang talento mo. Ang dami na naniniwala sa kakayanan mo bilang isang manunulat. He wants you to write crime fiction novel exclusive for their company, at malaki ang offer nilang pera. Malaking tulong ang pera na makukuha mo para magpatuloy ka sa pag-aaral mo at alam natin kung gaano kamahal ang tuiton ng law school. You should grab this opportunity." he advised.

Everything is new for me and I think I shoud thank Josiah for coming to my life. Dahil baka kung hindi siya dumating at hindi ako kinuha mula sa Mental Institution ay baka hindi ko makita ang ganda ng buhay, hindi ako mabibigyan ng pagkakataon para manahap ang liwanag, ang paghihilom at baka hindi ko maabot ang mga pangarap ko. 

Kahit gaano kalalim ng hinanakit ko, there's still a thank you. I was able to chase my dreams and fight for teardrops of justice.

"I'm on it," I said without hesitation. 

Narinig ko ang malakas na palakpak niya sa kabilang linya, she seems pleased to my urgent desicion. "Okay, my dear writer. I tell him about this," he said and ended the call.

When I finish cooking and ate my breakfast, I went to the University.

I barely believe in friendship supremacy because I spent my whole life being alone and facing the rage and judgement of society but everything felt surreal after I spread my wings and bravely seek for my dreams.

"Shein!" someone shouted inside of the University.

When I face her, I saw my academic rival - Xyla Gwen Gotay, also my best friend who helps me to figure out my future.

We are academic rival, but we are also a best friend, she is my first friend who acknowledge me and accept my flaws. 

 "Good morning, best friend!" she sweetly greeted me as she hugged me.

"Good morning, babe," I joked.

Together, we went to our perspective room. Nang makarating at maka-upo kami ay agad siya lumapit sa akin.

"You're a writer, right?" she asked full of curiosity. I nodded my head.

Mas hininaan niya ang kanyang boses. "Can you write my own story? About a servant of God fell in love in walking red flag," nahihiya niyang sabi.

I chuckled knowing how she hates love but unexpectedly fell in love to our red flag classmate - Joshua Ced. 

"So, you already love him?" I asked. Although, I know the reason I still asked her.

"Wala, eh. Kapag nagmahal ka walang kawala. There's no exception kahit sabihin pa natin na hindi tayo magmamahal, wala tayo magagawa oras na matagpuan na natin ang para sa atin. Its either it will break you or teach you to grow us individual." 

Pero hindi pa ako handa para magmahal. To find a true love amid of chaos and trauma. I'm still learning and fight for justice. Nakakatakot ang idea na magmahal ng walang kasiguraduhan at masira ang lahat ng pinaghirapan mo. Love is a risk and I'm too wounded to take the risk.

"Darating ang tunay at purong pagmamahal sa takdang oras. And we are too young to tell so. For now, chase your dreams." I smiled on her.

Maybe from what happened to my life, I'm still hoping that I deserve love and it will find its way to find me.

When our teacher came, we fix ourselves. 

We llisten to her and take some notes. Ilang oras din nakibaka ang utak ko sa mga lesson. I find it hard to learn those knowledge because I don't attend face to face classes when I'm on Junior High however, I'm giving my best in every shot.

Nang i-dismiss kami ng teacher namin ay agad ko nakita si Xyla kasama si Joshua. I bitterly smile having a second thought if I truly deserve a pure love. 

I'm too broken for someone to handle.

Mag-isa akong naglalakad sa hallway ng makita ko ang isang pamilyar na mukha. And all of by sudden, I'm at peace like I'm supposed to be safe in this world full of agony.

Suot-suot niya ang nurse uniform niya habang maagas na naglalakad papalapit sa aking pwesto. It's Percival Lee.

Sinalubong niya ako ng kanyang mga ngiti habang hawak-hawak ang school id niya. 

"Shein," his eyes is calm as he reached me.

Inabot niya sa aking ng school id niya. "UP Diliman. Psychologist  student, Percival Lee," I stated.

Dahan-dahan siyang tumango. I immediately hugged him in the middle of crowd. "You made it!" masaya kong pahayag.

Ramdam ko ang pagyakap niya sa akin pabalik. "Thank you for rooting for me," he smiled widely.

Hinila ko siya at dinala sa Ice Cream vendor. I buy a two cups of ice cream for us and pay for it. I want to celebrate his success with me.

"Ice ceam muna wala pa ako pera," nahihiya kong sabi.

He smiled too widely. "Eh, favorite food natin ito." 

We chuckled.

"Bakit ka pala nag-phycologist?" I asked him.

He grinned his lips. "I want to help her be healed and patiently wait for her until I have the right to love her," ang kanyang mga mata ay puno ng pagsusumamo.