Teardrops Of Justice (Under PIP Collab) ✔️

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In never ending battle of life, be your own superhero - be your own kind of savior who vow no man and chose yourself no matter how hard the situation is.

Truth to be told, I've personally experienced it. Naransan ko na malunod na walang sino man ang dumating para sagapin ako. Wala nangumusta noong panahon na walang-wala at ubos na ubos na ako. And after a years, there was people who stayed but little did I know I'm just a trophy - and not someone whom important and appreciated.

Where comes the bunch of people came, idolize me and I thought finally I found my people but who am I kidding? They don't love me as person, they love me as writer.

But in the midst of self doubt, insecurities and questioning my worth, Percival came and together we dance in the rain called tragedy of life.

"Basa ka na," he stated.

Sino ba kasi ang hindi mababasa pagkatapos maligo ng ulan?

Tiningala ko kulay asul na kalangitan. I smiled bitterly while realizing how life works.

"My favorite writer once wrote, that life has two side of ending. Those who started in Happy life tends to have a unhappy ending, ends up in the arms of tragedy. While, those who started in Tragedy has a bigger chance to have an happy ending." pinagmasdan niya ako ng taimtim. "Maybe she's right. Because I badly want to witness your most genuinely smile, forgiving yourself and announcing that the author behind 'Fairytale Series' once a wounded star but find its healing. Ako ang unang papalakpak oras na mangyari 'yun,"

"Why are you rooting on me?" I asked, full of curiosity.

Kung ang pamilya ko ang madali ako tinalikuran, bakit siya madali ako pagkatiwalaan?

Andun na ako! Andun na ako sa parte ng buhay ko kung saan unti-unti ko tinatanggap na hindi ako karapat-dapat sa pagmamahal at kabutihan.

After the biggest tragedy happened in my life, I stop believing in God. Pero bakit kahit tinalikuran ko na siya mabait parin siya. Bakit malaki ng kasalanan ko sa kanya hindi niya parin ako pinapabayaan.

Even how many times I questioned him, he's still hanging on me. Believing and giving hope. Because this wounded writer is now tired but then He came. God came and I know from this day, he will make me complete again.

"Dahil kailangan natin ng kahit isang tao na maniniwala sa atin. Isang tao na hindi magsasawang samahan ka sa paglalakbay mo kahit gaano pa ito kadilim. Isang tao na hindi mapapagod magtanong kung kumusta ang buhay. Even the strong person has weak spot. Kahit gaano pa katapang ng isang tao, kailangan niya parin ng masasandalan. Dahil hindi sa lahat na unos, mananatili siyang nakatayo. Mananalo siya ngunit muubos. And we need to root from them. Root for the people we truly love and we genuinely care."

Tipid ko siyang nginitian.

Ilang beses ba naging malupit ang mundo sa akin? And no one was there to fight with me. Ngayon lang. Ngayon lang.

A single tear scaped in my face. "So, this is the feeling of having someone when the world is being unfair," I chuckled, bitterly.

"I blamed everyone for not seeing those scars, for not hearing those painful scream when I'm asking for help, for not helping me when I'm kneeling and begging to stop this pain. But its worth it." I faced him, with the tears in my eyes. "Tumaas respeto ko sa sarili ko. Dahil kaya ko pala. Nakaya ko kahit walang tulong ng iba. I survived but the pain was too deep for me to recover. But that's okay, I think I'm brave enough to stand in court again and fight for my innocence. Because after a tears, Justice will prevail."

Akala ko magtatanong pa siya tungkol sa kung ano ang kahulugan ng sinabi ko sa huling pangungusap ko pero salamat at hindi na siya nag-usisa pa.

Maybe when the wounds are finally healed, I can be able to tell him about my darkest past.

For now, I will win this battle without dragging someone I care and love.

"Let's go the nearest supermarket to buy your clothes and some vitamins," he said more like a command.

"Vitamins?" maybe for him, he's a future doctor after all.

"Kailan mo maging malusog. There's a long journey ahead of you so baby let's take care of yourself."

Did I heard it right? Baby?

Dahil sa gulat at hindi parin maproseso ng brain cells ko ang sinabi niya ay siya na mismo ang humila sa kamay ko. He tightly hold my hand.

"Percival, I want to study Law. Pero wala pa ako pera kaya kukuha muna ako ng Political Science sa ibang University. Kukuha din ako ng scholarships pero mukhang mahihirapan ako. Pero may kinikita naman ako sa pagsusulat. I want to be independent." and I also want to defend myself in court.

Na oras na ipaglaban ko ang hustisya ulit, buong tapang ko na ipapahayag at sasabihin ang buo kong kwento.

He smiled genuinely and warmly. "Then I surrender baby,"

Hinampas ko siya sa braso niya pero ang loko ay tawang-tawa lang.

When we reached the supermarket, we heard different groans and rants from costumer. May isang Political Science Student daw ang hinipuan kaya galit na galit ang boyfriend nito.

I don't know why but I don't want this feeling. Feeling of getting betrayed.

Naki-siksikan agad ako sa mga nagkukumpulan na tao. I saw Jossiah, angrily punching a man.

Ano ginagawa niya? He's a legal management student at baka makasira ito sa credential niya!

Akmang papakalmahin ko siya nang may isang babae ang lumitaw.

"Joshwa, tama na." she controlled herself pero bakas ang takot at pangamba sa mukha nito.

I'm so sure she can't control Jossiah. Kapag galit ito wala sa kanya nakaka-kontrol.

"Jossiah Law Wolkzbin!" she hissed.

Agad na tumigil si Jossiah. Ang mga galit niyang mga mata ay napalitan ng pamumungay. His soft side is showing. Parang takot siyang masaktan ang babae. He is very soft to her, malayong-malayo sa Jossiah na nakilala ko.

"Stop acting like a jealous boyfriend! Ang unfair mo, may girlfriend ka na pero bakit andito ka parin at pinapaki-alaman ang love life ko!" she asked full of anger. Hinanakit sa lalaking mahal niya.

Ang matapang at ma pride na Jossiah nakilala ko ay biglang lumuhod sa harapan ng babae. Sa gitna ng maraming tao - nagmamaka-awa.

"Please baby believe me. She's not my girlfriend. She need me. I sheltered her because she don't have a family. She's just a responsibility. Resposibilidad lang siya. Ikaw... Mahal kita. I love you, Unnicayds. Ako, sayong sayo lang ako." paninigurado niya.

"A responsibility? And you're choosing her than your love for me?" she asked. Bakas parin na wala siyang tiwala sa mga sinasabi ni Jossiah.

"Yes! She's just a responsibility. She's too broken. I was there when she nearly killed herself in her 18th birthday. Love, believe me love, walang-wala siya sa'yo. You're too brave and I won't hesitate to chose you. I'm choosing you because I love you. She's nothing compare to you." he gave her assurance.

Parang isang iglap namatay ako. His words is enough to make me feel so shit.

I'm just a responsibility! I never asked him to get me out in Mental Hospital. I never asked him to save me! He just gave me shelter but he never save me. Dahil higit pa sa impyerno ang mga salitang binitawan niya.

Nanlalabo ang aking matang humakbang sa kanila. I even heard Percival calling my name.

Nang magsalubong ang mga mata namin ni Jossiah ay bakas ang pagsisisi at gulat sa kanyang abong mga mata.

"You was there when I attempted to kill my own life yet you chose to close your eyes! In order to give her assurance you need to break me. Don't worry, Jossiah. I will be no longer your responsibility."

I immediately left the supermarket. Fuck them! Fuck everyone who take me for granted. I hope you're happy seeing how badly I'm wounded.

Ramdam ko ang panginginig ng aking buong katawan. Bago pa ako mawalan ng malay ay may isang braso ang sumalo sa pagod kong katawan. A scent of Percival makes my system calm.

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