Claiming The Hidden Alpha✔️

Chapter 9: Confused

Jerome

I heard all that was said by Erica's parents, and I couldn't help but feel guilty for what I had done to her. I knew that saying such isn't appropriate, but I thought she would do what others do to their partners.

I had thought that she would reject me, and I wanted her to do so. I couldn't believe how I had hurt her. I feel like I made a terrible mistake by telling Mabel I loved her and then telling her to reject me.

I knew that what I felt for Mabel was love, but I doubt if the love is still in my heart. I knew for a fact that things wouldn't go as I wanted if I kept on saying I loved Mabel and that I'd do anything to go back to her.

I knew the damage that it could do to her. I felt hurt knowing that she was willing to give other guys out there a chance in her life. I knew that thinking like that isn't right because I have done that to her already.

I can't seem to pinpoint what to do. Part of me wanted to leave the pack and go to Mabel, while the other wanted me to stay with my mate.

I was shocked to hear from her family that she cries whenever she has an argument with her parents, and she did that yesterday. I knew that I was the cause of the argument she had with her parents, and that only made me feel more guilty.

I wasn't happy about all that I had done to her, and during the time that I was unconscious, I heard everything being said by Erica and her parents. I feel bad for making her go through all that. I feel bad for wanting to reject her when her intentions were to be with me peacefully.

I knew that she was ready to let me go, even though she didn't want me to.

I knew that leaving the pack would only do more damage to her.

I now knew the reason behind her irrational behavior with me.

I knew she brought me here when I fainted in the cold room, but I don't want to think of that.

I had thought that her doing all that was to make sure I don't die so I can do things she wants me to do. I thought she was just as the people had portrayed her. I thought she was as arrogant toward people as she is toward me. I thought she was a rude alpha who only wanted her wish to come true.

I had to try standing up to tell them I was aware of all that was happening and that I was at fault for everything. I want to tell them that I tried to rectify my mistakes but couldn't.

I don't like the idea of leaving her, even though I have always wanted to do so. I knew that if it was the moment I arrived here that I was asked to leave, then I'd do so immediately, but now that has changed. I don't want to be apart from her.

I could hear her whispers even though they were inaudible when I was asleep. I knew she was keeping watch on me, just like she had said to her parents.

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It's morning now, and I'm now able to move my body. My eyes were sore, and I rubbed my fingers gently over them. I looked around and noticed that Erica was still sleeping peacefully with her head on the bed.

I stood up, and I carefully placed her head on my lap. I stared at her sleeping figure, and I couldn't help but feel more attracted to her. I knew that my absence from Mabel would make things hard for the burning passion I had for her to keep increasing.

I knew that the person I'm close to is the person my heart would get attracted to. I knew that it would be unfair if I let Mabel go and accepted Erica. I was confused about what to do. I knew that whatever I did would greatly affect one of them. I knew what Mabel and Erica can do whenever they are angry. I knew that Erica would keep on venting her anger on anything around her.