hindsight | haerin x danielle | daerin

chapter 15

DANIELLE pov

"So, will you be coming tomorrow? Sleepover at Hanni's house," I put a mouthful of ice cream in my mouth as I watch her eat hers at the edge of her bed

Her eyes darted at me, she slowly put her spoon down and sighed, "I'm not allowed to, my father took my phone."

I remained silent. I knew it. This has happened before but it wasn't suppose to be happening right now. Did it change because I confessed early? Or was it just a coincidence?

"You and Hanni are close now?" She asked quietly

I smiled a little, "Yeah, surprising isn't it?"

"Hmh, as far as I know Hanni hated you and your friends," She boldly stated which made me chuckle

She's very straightforward.

"Well things happen, we get along pretty well." There was a pause. As I think of it now, me, Hanni and Hyein weren't this close, we acknowledged each other because I was dating Haerin

We were more like acquiantances more than friends if I recall, she ended up dating Karina but Minji liked her.

My friend was too much of a coward, she couldn't tell Hanni how she feels, I wonder what will happen now.

"I feel a lot better, I didn't expect you to come back.. why did you?" Haerin stood up and sat beside me in the small space infront of her window

"I just felt like it.. do you not feel comfortable? Do you want me to go?" I raised from the floormat and wiped my clothes when I felt her tugged the end of my shirt

"Don't." She said, voice a bit more low and sad, she recovered quickly and released her grip, "I mean if you have something important to do, you can go."

I sat back down, "Nah, I'm not a busy woman."

Silence, and more silence. It was comfortable good thing 'cause I thought there would be an awkward atmosphere that will surround us

"The walls tend to grow smaller around this hour," She began as I listen, "This big profound house can feel quite suffocating, so I'm glad you're here."

Is it also too early to hold her hand right now?

I look at her, she looks the same. The same girl I loved, pretty, cute, mysterious and much more healthier than the last time I saw her in her hospital bed.

Is it too much if I hug her right now? It wouldn't hurt right?

And so I did.

I hugged her as tight as I could, I feel sorry. I feel bad and sad, I wanted to cry, I wanted to tell her I miss her eventhough she's here.

But she wouldn't understand and I might scare her away. Sometimes I'm afraid to even touch her 'cause it makes me think she will vanish into thin air.

My Kang Haerin, you deserve every little good thing in this world.

We were startled by the three loud knocks on the door, my phone beeped as well, and I can tell Haerin's panicking inside

I looked at her and she looked back as I said, "I'll go,"

She looked like she didn't want me to but she had no choice, before she can say anything I already went out the window and climbed down as quiet as I could

I gaze at her window one last time, it's close now. I hope she's fine, maybe I'll come back tomorrow

I grabbed my bag and walked towards the other side of the street when I felt a hand grab my shoulder

I jolted from where I stood, my heart  jumped

"I knew you'd be here,"

It's Kai.

"What the? Did you follow me?" I asked accusingly

He rolled his eyes, "We have to talk,"

"Again?!" I can't help but whine. It feels like I've talked to him plenty more times than I did with Haerin

"Chaewon's in a coma,"

I froze on my spot as soon as he spoke.

"What?"

I feel like my head's going to explode. How did that happen? Why?

"She is. That's why I'm here. The others went to the hospital." Kai added and every word that comes out of his mouth makes me wanna throw up

How did this happen? Are we at fault? Is it my fault?

"How? Why? Since when?" My voice trembled as I speak

I can see Kai's heavy breathing, his shoulders were moving up and down. He messed his hair in frustration

"This is my fault, fuck!" He cried out quietly, "As much as I want us to go back in the right timeline, I can't."

Tears fell as I watch him hurt himself, I waited for him to calm down. We sat at the ground, staring quietly at the stars, out of mind like zombies

It took a couple more minutes before he decided to speak again.

"Do you know who told us about Chaewon's condition?"

My eyes went to his solemn face. "Who?"

"Her girlfriend, Sakura."

My eyes widened in shock.

"Kai, what day is it?"

He nods and looked away, "Today was supposed to be the day of her club's fieldtrip... the same fieldtrip that caused Sakura's death."

"But she's alive." I said even if I knew what he meant

"Exactly, she's alive, the fieldtrip was cancelled. She was taking care of Chaewon. The accident didn't happen."

I swallowed, "Oh my god, the events changed. What will happen to Chaewon?" I covered my face as I cried

Is this one of the consequences? Will there be more? Should I even keep going? God, please, tell me what I should do.

"Chaewon's still alive, but we will never know when she'll wake up."